
Story Time
So I met this person about 2 years ago. Basically, she’s kind enough to let me stay in her club for my whole PIMD journey. Not only she let me made me a perm, she also helped me grow my stats, gave me bentos and furnis, and taught me how things work in PIMD since I was a newbie. Months later during my stay, not only she entrusted me by giving me higher ranks in club which I am so honored (Tbh, I did not know what I did for someone to trust me, but I am glad she did), she thought of me as part of the family as well as everyone in club.
Sadly, not all the time had to stay things above, everyone in club faced many hardships and arguments which led to improper goodbyes and unsolved feuds. I thought I could promise myself to stay by her side, but alas, she thought of me as a different person and my worst fears became true. She started to push me away like everyone else who left, I tried my best to be patient to her and understand her. Still, she treats me like I am not a human being with no feelings. I couldn’t handle it no more, so I stood for myself and defended my feelings because everything she said are like a barrage of piercing arrows. Aside everything she did, from the gaslighting/manipulation, offending words, restricting everyone, taking my rights to choose an avi (yes, you read it right!). Even from a male choosing a female avi, it is like an abomination to her and that’s what rings to my head: HOMOPHOBIA.
As a closeted gay person irl, the topic “being gay” still makes me uncomfortable sometimes even though I accept myself. But for others who are against gay people or anyone in the community, it is unacceptable and kind of sad and disappointing no matter how close you are to these “anti-homosexuals” These members of the community already suffered a lot even from the beginning they accept their personal selves.
After deciding that no matter how hard I try to solve the problem, it recoils to me and causing me to break myself. To be honest, I am the person who tries to do and think what’s best for everyone even though I might ended up being hurt. I realised it was already toxic for me, and I just realised that no matter how kind you are, bad things will come to you.
In the end, I left for good, I never felt so much freedom before. The strangling hand in my neck was finally gone, I know I should not be overreacting this much but it is what I truly felt. It’s like finally seeing the whole world in a new perspective and ways I couldn’t even imagine. Now, I am staying in a new club with my very very close friend and a bro that I could not even ask for more
@Froggie- . He accepted me for who I am even though he already sensed that I am not straight hahaha. Still, I am so grateful to have him as kind of like an older brother who had back way back we were still in our old club.
So, to all members of the LGBTQIA+ community especially to the closeted ones, take your time and don’t feel pressured like you owe something to them. We can decide when we will do it and do not let what other people say comes to you because it will lead you breaking down (from my experience). The right people will understand and accept for who you are as a person. Probably you might lose friends (which kind of sucks) but it will set you free. Do not be afraid to cut ties to someone who can’t respect for who you are and do not spread hate to them even if they are hurtful because after all…
“We are living under one sky, so let us all live peacefully where love is our language.” - Samantha Bernardo, MGI 2020 1st RU
HAPPY PRIDE MONTH EVERYONE!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!

