Sparrow. It's pretty serious. Take your chance. Record it while you are at it. And for you lady, don't be picky. I'll cry
It's funny how people say it's confusing or that you're confused, but people like me know exactly what you mean. It's terrible.
Sounds like you came out of the closet in the real world but you didn't come out of the closet in your mind.
Just tell yourself, "I am gay." I don't know if it works or not.. And if it does, I'm going to change my major to psychology.