*instead of being in a less stressful environment it sounds worse than what was home. *listen to the idiots saying try . . . Sorry my phone wouldn't let me go back and correct mistakes.
Thanks guys. I do want help, I had a therapist before I got evicted but up here there are none. I guess I'll wait until I'm back down at home again. I know most of my problems are in the past but they're still in effect today. I can't just start forgetting about them. I watched my dad, aunt and grandfather get into an argument. Knowing my dad, I was afraid. I was so scared something was going to happen so I just started crying and yelling. My moms aunt stays on case about accusing me of this, that and the other. She talks down to me, said I didn't belong in the family because of my height. It's tiring and exhausting, she's had the police come to my house. I love my mom and dad, I grew up with him until I was 11 and he left, I had to watch him leave through the screen door. My sister is the one into drugs, not me. No one can seem to believe that but mom and dad.
I always feel the same way myself. I'm really hoping things get better for you. Lots of things happen, and it seems to break you apart, slowly.You feel disconnected from everything, and want to leave yourself be from all the commotion as time passes. I felt that for a while as well. My family always travels, and I don't see them often. So when you are always missing someone, or you feel like they don't care, I hope things turn the better way out. My mother is so difficult with me, and she gets paranoid with me that I've done something wrong with her life so when I see her, she yells at me for random things that never happened. She had me when she was about to get her PHD in dentistry, but couldn't finish because I was her priority as well, and she complains to me everyday that she wishes I wasn't born. I love her, but her words have hurt me, exspecially when I was at my worst state. For your disorder, I'm sorry you have to face all the medication in your face everyday screaming that you need to take it. I have a multiple personality disorder, and I really hate with all my life the medicine, aside from the disorder itself. Its a lump that goes down your body and masks it for a period of time. Overdose is something that can be so easily done, and it's never the answer. I hope things don't go down that way. I really don't want to expain my whole life referring to this and that. All I want to say is I hope life gets better, and that you can pm me, even if you dont need it. Stay strong, and if life knocks you down, keep on rolling their obstacles away from you.
Thanks, Done. Medication helps at times, my anxiety medication for one works wonders. Mood stabilizers aren't as strong, sleeping medication is only when I get flashbacks or can't sleep. My support system is mom, boyfriend and dad. That's all I need and could ask for, they're amazing. I've had moments where I was really going downhill, and talking about that would upset me. Thanks everyone for letting me vent and share things I've needed to say to at least one person and for them to say, "it's okay, I understand what you're going through. It'll be okay." That's all I've needed to hear from one person and I got it back from five. Thank you, forumers of PimD for talking and understanding.