This thread seems like a joke to me, a person looking for advice to control his behavior on a gaming app seriously visit a doctor man instead. And all your actions are you own choice, stop acting like you can't control it, you can you don't want to, bullies like you unknowingly force people into depression. Suck it up and get some real help stop trying to justify this shit.
Try practicing a sport like boxing, I get that feeling sometimes ?, but I don't bully anyone it's not their fault ?