I actually like it. Nice work. My answer to your paradox is to plant new seeds of sweetness in your garden or get used to the taste of bitterness if you choose to stay there.
My life isn't miserable. I'm loving my finances. Anyways, my ego never inflates. You and your followers just wrongfully assume that it does.
Whatever you think you're doing isn't working. I'm not s tsundere. I'm not cold towards people wit good personalities and I don't warm up to people wit bad personalities. You're not senpai