She was strong af tbh. I was diagnosed with multiple autoimmune diseases when I was 14 and I literally just gave up on life. The doctors said they couldn't really tell how long I was going to live because I kept developing new diseases and symptoms. I went into severe depression and stopped studying, painting and literally just waited for death. I eventually became suicidal because the stress was too much and it made me extremely sad and anxious to see my parents crying and overdosed on painkillers, but that didn't kill me. I finally started recovering mentally when I was 15. My paediatrician was an amazing man that helped me live through this trauma. I still battle depression from time to time but it's not as severe as it was back then. A few of my disorders actually went away on their own. I can't really express how strong she is. Lupus affects multiple organs and is really hard to live with. She was really brave. Rest In Heaven, Nelly.
Probably a mix between my mother, my father and my health. Looking back, my mother had never accepted me as her own after my father took me in when I was around 4. After he passed, she was pretty much a massive d¡ck to me. Then with my health, I’m in hospital so much and it gives a lot of time to reflect. Being told I will die much quicker than the average human being puts a lot into perspective for me, so I try to be a better person