If y'all want to read more stories by me read who should I choose, gone, and war of the Farlands in that order
I always tried to keep my feelings secret. I wouldn't tell anyone how I felt. I'm not sure that helped that much though. I felt trapped and alone and scared. What could become of my life from now on? I felt like I couldn't talk to anyone but Zevin and I couldn't cry until he knew what was wrong. I had felt guilty if I cried. I knew others had it worst but I just couldn't help feeling sorry for myself. I wanted to see him so bad. I would go to our old clubhouse every day. I wouldn't walk in scared of memories but as soon as I saw it I saw him walking away that day we met. I saw this every time but knew my mind was playing tricks on me. How could I feel like this at such a young age? I was almost thirteen! I had such a long life ahead and plenty of guys to meet and fall in love with but I felt as though... He was the only one I could ever truly love. He had divorced parents same as me. He had liked me for me unlike every one else. He saw me on my bad hair days and at my ugliest. He helped me through hard times. We had become good friends and then.. He left. I could tell he liked me from several months after we met. He hadn't fell for me on impact as I had him but he did. I started to wish on 11:11 wishes. They could come true right? If you really believed and cried as you thought of it... Couldn't miracles happen? My friends didn't know a thing about me as they thought they did. They always thought I didn't have the guts to do a lot of things. They thought wrong and I was scared to do some things though because of what has happened in the past. I remember throwing rocks at skunks, shooting beer bottles, throwing beer bottles on the ground shattering then to pieces, knocking down a swarm of bees by throwing rocks at them, and even spray painting on a building! How could I after doing ridiculous things like that? They couldn't understand though. My friends thought 11:11 wishes were fake but I believed with all my heart that they were real and that's all I needed right? ~~>~~>~~>~~>~~>~~> Sorry I haven't updated in a while but I did now!
Sorry my Internet will be down and I won't be able to update till January third sorry:-( I will update as soon as possible though