Torn

I couldn't breathe.. It was all a blur. I fell to Ryan and hugged him.
"Hes here.." I whispered.
"WHOS HERE!!???" Ryan seemed worried about me...He hugged me and rocked me gently.
"Jenna. Tell me who is here. What are you saying?" Ryan spoke into my ear.

I explianed the whole story to him. He was furious. I told him everything that happened between Alec and I.. All except that kiss. I couldn't tell him. I still loved him.

"Jenna, why would you go out with him?!!!! Alone!!! No one knew where you were!!! I came today because I had to know you were ok.. Jenna, I couldn't live with myself if you got hurt..." Ryan spoke softly, as he stared into my eyes. I could see the fury he was holding back for my sake. All these feelings were rushing back to me, and I was indeed, Torn.

 

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*That next Monday*

Alec followed me down the hall and continued asking me what was the matter. I looked at him and told him about my weekend, omitting the kiss Ryan and I had shared.

I didn't talk much to anyone, I was too disrtracted thinking about my kiss with Alec, then with Ryan. What on earth was I supposed to do?

At lunch I sat by myself on the bench outside. None of the other kids noticed me, I was half hidden by a tree. I almost fell asleep, when I felt someone tug at my jeans... It was Kristen. I really couldn't handle her right now. I had my own problems to handle.

 

The bell rang to go to third block, so I trudged over to my locker, grabbed my books and got out my bottle of Tylenol. I poured out two pills, noticing one was significantly pinker than the other. I shrugged it off and took the pills anyway.

 

I developed an even worse headache, so I signed out in the office and began walking to my car. Everything was spinning. My stomach churned and my walking staggered. I couldn't see straight. I felt like I was drowning in deep water, with no help.

My head and heart pounded in sync with eachother, as I fell before my car, and my vision slowly went black, into nothing . . .

 

I woke up in my car, parked in my driveway, I looked up and around in my car, making sure no one was in there with me. I looked up to my windshield, and saw a letter on the outside under the wind shield wiper. I slowly got put of my car, feeling dizzy and flimsy, but i retrived the letter and read it.

"I had you in my arms, laying beside me. I could have easily killed you, but what would be the fun in doing that so early in the game? I know everything about you, Jenna. There's no need to believe your safe. I'll always be near you. Closer than you think. . "

I threw the letter down and cried. I was drugged, kidnapped and watched. I refused to return in the house, He could be in there. I got in my car and drove to Ryans house.

I knocked relentlessly. I couldn't get him to answer at all. I decided to walk in. I went up to his bed room and slammed open the door, only to find him with Amanda Knox, in bed.