'Till The Death Of Me

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-BTN-

"I WILL ******* KILL YOU!" I screamed as I opened my eyes and gasped for air like I haven't breathed for how many centuries.

I looked at Leo's face. It had a hint of anger and fear. I didn't know what to do. What if he ward it? Oh no.

The memories were coming back, "It hurts." I whimpered as I broke down on my knees, "I'm sorry... Leo. I'm so sorry."

Leo came back to reality and he hugged me; the kind of hugged I've always yearned for after all those troubles. The hug that I have been longing to feel once again.

"I'm sorry Katerina. I was such a useless boyfriend." I could feel his tears on my skin, I could feel him breathing on my neck.

I whispered in his ear and said, "One four three," and kissed him gently on the cheeks.

He looked at my eyes deeply, we were stuck in a trance and I was loving it. He cupped my chin and kissed me, long, hard and passionate.

It's funny how we can be like this when I'm in a mental institution. I broke off the kiss and caught my breath, "I love you. I never left you. If I really did, hell, I can't imagine it even."

He wiped the tears off my face and chuckled, "Katerina, I'm so sorry for leaving you behind. I an so sorry for not asking about your troubles."

I shook my head slowly, "No... It was my choice, love. I didn't want you to get involve." my tears couldn't stop streaming down. And then I realise what I have done. I killed two families. I can't think of things like this. It's better to break it off before it starts again. And that's where it hit me... Keith.

I stood up and backed away from him, "I can't do this Leo... It's better if we stay like this. Psychiatrist-Patient relationship. Please. I don't want you to get hurt ever again."

He stood up and walked to me with a confused face, "But, Ka-"

"No Leo. Leave me. Please." I sobbed.

He respected my decision and left, I broke down once again.

Why does my life get harder every second? Leo, I'm so sorry. I just have to do this. I have to end everything. My life can't stay like this. I'm sorry.
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What if he heard it?***

Sorry. Dang. I hate auto-corrects and my bad grammar. 

 

I'm ending this story. It's getting... uninteresting.

 

 I meant that I will end this soon. I won't make this too long. I wanna move on to another story. 

 

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As he went out, he looked at me in pain. I looked at him back showing no emotions. I'm sorry. I mouthed.

He nodded as a teardrop fell from his sorrowful eyes.

And he left... he left... No, I let him go. Until I figure everything out. I can't go back to him. I started this. I will end this, I will end everything. My sin... my sorrow. I can't live on any longer.

I took a blade under my bed, little did they know I still have an "Emergency" kit, which obviously are blades inside.

I looked at it carefully, touching the edge like I haven't seen it for so long.

"Shit." I said as I accidentally cut myself. I sucked my blood off my finger and smiled.

My haven. My beautiful haven. I have come back."
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Omg. 
I love you guys so much.
But this is ending after ten posts, maybe? Or twenty.

I will have a very satisfying ending.

I want to move on to my new story. I do not want to post yet 'cause I hate being uninterested in this story and continue my new one. I love this story. So much. And I want it to have an ending, not to leave you guys hanging.

And I hope you guys will love my upcoming story.

Roze, this already one the award  and I'm not even popular~~

Anyway... Enjoy the short update.

 

Won*

 

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I placed the blade in my pocket as I bent down near the bed where there was a vent that I knew that would lead outside.

I've been planning this for many months already, so if I get too sick of it, I can just run away. I opened the vent, it was fit for my size. I've been working on unscrewing the screws in each side of it.

It was gonna be hard, I know. But it was worth the try... I have to see Keith. He has to tell me... EVERYTHING.
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Very short update. 