When I saw Jacob again that day, I felt a stab of guilt through my heart. He didn't know anything that I knew...and I couldn't tell him either! He hugged me tight and wispered in my ear: I think I love you. That was it. I couldn't keep this secret anymore. I unraveled myself from his grip and turned to face him. "look jacob..." I started "you're breaking up with me?" he asked scared as heck! "no no no! But...you're going to probably want to after I tell you this...." he looked at me, confused. "I......I'm........pregnant....." I said quietly. He didn't say anything. He just stood there, he wasn't even looking at me, it wa like he was looking through me. I'd lost him forever....
"I'm going to be a dad!" he shouted but I hushed him.. "ohh...I'm going to be a dad!!!" he wispered excitedly. The thing was...I didn't know if HE was going to e the father or not. I tried to hide my guilt. Shaking my head, I knew I had to tell him the truth. "Jacob...I....I've not told you something..." I said holding his hands in mine, cherising what could be the last moment together in love. He looked concerned. "you.....might not be....the dad..." I said avoiding his eyes. Again, another silence. "what???" he said coldly. "you might not ....be the dad of this baby." I repeated. He didn't look at me. He was shaking with fury. Then suddenly he threw my hands off of his and marched aggressivley out of the locker room. I knew where he was going. He knew who it could be. Although he went to the same school, he didn't know him from that. He remembered from the movies on our first date. I didn't tell him who, I didn't need to...Jacob was very clever....
I ran after him...."Jacob wait! It wasn't his fault!!" I shouted trying to catch him up! "of course it's his f***ing fault!!! He had sex with you! And now he's not even with you! How dare he?!" he shouted back without looking back at me. I felt hurt. "so you want me and him to be together?" I said stopping chasing him.... He turned around slowly......
he looked at me, ice in his eyes.... "look..." he said standing still but not turning around. I stood there trying to become deaf. He was about to say something serious. "I......I cheated on you...." he whispered. I felt a dagger in my heart. That was it. "JACOB! NO, please take that back, please tell me you're joking!" I sobbed . "Jacob, I think I'm in love with you!" I cried, and this baby...it could be yours! I just don't know yet! Please Jacob, don't tell me you like her more than me?!" I pleaded, with blurred vision. He looked down at me. "okay, if you can forget it...can I tell you who it was and why it was her?" I looked up and dreaded the worst...
When he said it, I couldn't breathe. How could she?! She already stole my first love from me, and now she did it again!!! I was going to kill her! I hated her, I hated my life. Yasmin was going to die....
Awwww I'm so sorry! I'm getting ready for school haha, BUT sometimes when I write too much it never updates:'( I shall update tonight!