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I wasn't going to leave him... how could I possibly leave him? But if Mackenzie was still alive... what was I going to do?! "I'm not going to leave you," I told him when he walked through the door. I ran to him and threw my arms around him. "I love you! I love you so much!" I kissed him and he kissed me back. "I love you too," he said against my lips. I smiled. "Rafe... please..." I said and I began to unbutton his shirt. "I want you to..." He lightly touched my hand once he realized I was trembling. "Please... wait until your ready. I'm not going to force you to do anything you don't want to do." I blushed. "Don't humiliate me!" I said angrily. My face grew hot with embarrassment. "I'm not..." "Then... Please do something!" I shouted and I pushed him onto the floor. "Please... I..." "Katherine! Stop it!" "I need something to take my mind off of him! I don't want to think about him anymore!" I cried. "Him? You mean Mackenzie..." he whispered. "So this is why you want..." he shook his head. I could tell he was upset. "Well if it's what you want," he said and he quickly kissed me and pushed me onto my back and kissed me again. "I'll help you forget..." he whispered in my ear. The next morning I couldn't help but cry. What the hell did I do last night?! Did I regret what happened? No... but I did regret my first time with Mr.Cartier was all teary and me crying the entre time. Of course not in pain but because I had felt like I had used him... just so I could be happy. But was I happy now? No... "Do you regret it?" he asked me. I shook my head. "Only that I was crying most of the time." "Forgive me. I was just trying to help... And I was also a bit upset... about the whole "Mackenzie thing". "Do you regret it?" He didn't answer. "I see. I mean it's completely understandable!" I said reaching for my coat. "I mean.. why..." tears formed in my eyes as I quickly went toward the front door. "Where are you going?" he asked. "For a walk! I'll be home before we leave for school!" "Katherine... Are you crying?" "No! I mean why would I? You were just being honest... Of course you regret it! I mean..." I turned around only to find him right there in front of me... Only inches away. He pinned me against the door. "You really think I regret what we did?! You really are stupid! I love you Katherine! And I don't care whether you love me back or not! I will continue to love! Last night was amazing for me... Of course you cried most of the time... but it wasn't because of what was happening was it?" I shook my head. "See? I wouldn't regret it unless you regret it... I will always be here for you. Forever..." he said and he grabbed me and held me. "I love you so much!" I put my arms around his waist. "I love you too!" I cried and I buries my face into his chest. "I love you..."