Alone. I wanted nothing more to be alone. Once again... I felt the same pain I had experienced when Mackenzie died. Depressed. Hurt. I wanted to cry but no tears came out. Was this the way it was supposed to be? Was this the way God was telling me to move on and find a life somewhere else? No... This was my fault. There was a knock on the door. "Katherine?" it wad Mr.Cartier. I cringed and quickly went to go lock the door but he came in. "Are you alright?" he asked. "I heard..." "Go away! I don't want to see you know," I said. "Please leave!" "But I need to talk to you..." I ran towards the window and stood there. I opened it and then glared at him. "If you take one more step I'll jump. We're two floors up and I could get seriously injured." "You're joking... Come on! Don't be like this! What is wrong with you?!" he shouted. "Nothing is wrong with me! I just don't want to see you right now so why can't you just leave! I want to be alone! I really just want to be left alone so go away!" "Katherine..." he said quietly. He took a step towards me. "I said don't or I'll jump!" I threatened. "No you won't," he said taking another step. He took one more step and that was my cue. I leaned backwards and purposely tripped of the ledge and fell. "KATHERINE!!" I heard him shout. And before I knew it I watched him dive out the window after me. He caught me in mid air and held me tight in his arms. "Mr.Cartier... OH MY GOD!! Mr.Cartier what are you doing!" I cried. "You could get hurt because of me!" "I don't care." We hit the ground and rolled. We finished rolling and I ended up only inches from his side. My leg hurt but I could tell nothing was broken. "Mr.Cartier?" I crawled over to him. He didn't move. "Mr.Cartier...? Mr.Cartier?!" I shouted. I shook him bur he didn't respond. "No... NO!!" I screamed. "Not you too! Please! Somebody help me! Help! Somebody!"
I waited, pacing back in forth in the emergency room. Oh God... don't do this to me... not again. Tears steamed down my face and I couldn't stop crying. If he died what would I... "Is he alright now Leann?" asked a voice. It was a nurse. She was asking the nurse who had just come out of Mr.Cartier's room. "Well..." "Is he alright?!" I demanded. I ran to her and grabbed her shoulders. "Please tell me! Is he alright?! I need to know! Please!" I begged. I collapsed onto my knees. "Tell me... I beg of you." "He's... he's going to be okay," she told me. "C... Can I see him?" I asked. "I'm sorry. He... He hasn't waken yet. But I'm positive he will be fine. He just took a nasty fall, that's all." "You know... this is my fault... He wouldn't be here if it wasn't for me. This is all my fault." "I'm sure it isn't." "But it is. He... and I... we..." I paused. "When he wakes up, please tell him that I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all the trouble I have caused him over these past months. I am just so sorry that it ended up like this... Please tell him that," I said and I turned around and left. This wasn't happening... This was just a terrible dream that I was not waking from... 3 Days Later... "You know there's only two days left until your marriage to Lyle right?" asked Jillian. She took a bite of her toast. "What?!" I had completely forgotten. I had now basically moved in with her as well as Josh had as well. "Right." "You don't care?" asked Josh. "No. My life has already broken apart, this'll just add onto it. It's not like it would make any difference if I did or did not," I said calmly. "It wouldn't matter because he doesn't love me... He doesn't even..." Jillian an Josh looked at each other. "You know that's not true," said Jillian. "He jumped out a window! A WINDOW!! Why else would he do that?! Um hello! Because he loves you, and you know that! Stop feeling sorry for yourself and get over it! Just go and get him however you can I know you can do it!" "I believe that to you know," said Josh. He smiled and Jillian an the two blushed a deep red. They were right. I loved Mr.Cartier just as much as the two loved each other. I was happy with him, and I wasn't going to take 'no' for an answer!
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