Something Missing

I felt my heart break into two when I came home. Mr.Cartier had just left my house. His eyes met mine for a split second before he turned away.
"Mr.Cartier..."
"Don't speak to me."
"Mr.Cartier please! Please understand what is going on! I don't love him!"
"Then why the hell are you marrying him?!" he demanded. "God... I've had enough, I'm going home..."
"Wait! Why are you so mad?! Tell me that!"
He turned around. "You stupid girl! I just don't think it's right to marry someone you don't love!"
"So?"
"So... ? You really are dense," he said.
"Wait!" I said running after him. "I know you love me! I know this, so you can take me away! You can take me away right now, and prevent this marriage. You and I can elope, let's run away together! Please! We can be together! If only you'll just take me away from this place... I know you want to and I know you love me... so please..." I sobbed.
"No."
I gripped his shirt and fell to the ground. "Please... I can't bear to lose you! I love you so much it hurts!" tears were overflowing in my eyes. "Love me! Marry me! I want to be yours!"
"Stop it! I can't!" he shouted. He couldn't look me in the eyes.
"Tell me you love me."
"I... can't..."
"Just tell me... As long as I know you love me I can put up with this marriage. Please, just tell me you love me."
"I can't. I'm so sorry but I just can't!" he said.
My grip on his shirt let go and he hurriedly ran through the gates.
I sobbed. I couldn't control my tears, I barely even noticed my parents running out to me and takin me inside. I loved him... so much that I thought death could solve the pain I was feeling. I slowly made my way to the washroom, exacto knife in hand. I stood in front of the mirror. I smiled and one swift movement of the knife was all it took for me to faint into darkness...

 

I felt myself being overcome in darkness. I found myself alone... alone in the darkness that surrounded me.
"Is anyone there?!" I called out. No reply. I dropped down to the ground and curled into a ball. So this is what is was like to be... lonely. Where was I? How did I get here?"
"It's because you tries taking your life."
"Mackenzie?!" I shouted. I jumped up and looked around. No one was in sight, online darkness. "Where are you?!"
"I'm right here."
I turned around to see him... flesh and blood standing in front of me. He smiled a bit.
"I'm right here," he said again.
Tears formed in my eyes and I threw my arms around him.
"Oh God! You're here! You are really here!"
"Not for long... so tell me... why are you here?" he asked.
"You just said..."
"No. I mean why are you here? Like why would you attempt to do something so sinful?"
"You know why don't you? You watch over me all the time don't you?" I asked.
"Yes...but was it that bad to make you want to die? I never thought you would do something like this..."
"I wanted to do it when you left!"
"What?"
"When you died... I never got the chance to tell you that I loved you. I loved you so much, and when you died I thought everything was over... I contemplated on taking my life on several occasions but could never. Now I love Mr.Cartier just as much as I love you and if I can't be with him... I just don't want to lose him like I lost you."
I watched as he came over to me and wrapped his arms around me. He kissed my lips gently before letting go.
"You haven't lost me. And you sure as hell haven't lost him either. Wait for him. If you wait, I'm sure he'll come for you... Well times up and I have to go," he said. I watched as he began to fade away.
"Mackenzie! I love you! I love you so much!"
"I know that very well. I love you too, forever and for always Katherine. I will always love you," he said before he faded into the darkness.
I felt myself be taken out of the darkness instantly...

I opened my eyes to see my mother and father hovering over me.
"Mother... Father..."
"Welcome back," they said.
"Where am I?" I asked, although I could tell where I was.
"You're at the hospital. Your father found you in the bathroom, your wrist..." began my mother but she couldn't finish. "Well anyways it's great to have you back. You were out for a whole 34 hours."
"It feels nice to be back," I said quietly.

 

"Katherine, the doctors would like you to stay overnight, and they wondered if it would be possible to find you a therapist..." said my father.
"Therapist?"
"Well... you know... because you tried to commit suicide..." my mother said quietly.
"Oh."
"Yeah... well your mother and I are going to go home. Do you want one of us to stay with you?"
"No. I'm fine. I'll stay by myself," I said. The truth was I wanted one of them to stay but they would probably try to use guilt until I said they could leave.
"Alright then we'll leave," said my mother.
"Alright," i said watching them go. I slowly let myself drift asleep.

"Katherine?"
I opened my eyes to see Lyle. He stood with a flower bouquet in his hand and was dressed formally.
"Why are you here?" I asked.
"I could ask the same thing! What happened?" he asked.
"I don't want to talk about it."
"Please talk to me. As your future husband I don't want you to keep any secrets from me. I wasn't you to talk to me and be happy."
"I don't feel like talking about it in general!" I said.
"Fine..."
"Katherine?"
My heart fluttered when Mr.Cartier entered the room. He was dressed nicely and he seemed worried.
"Mr.Cartier...?"
"You!" shouted Lyle. He ran over to him and grabbed his shirt. One swift move and Lyle had him pinned to the wall. "This is all your damn fault!" he shouted. "Damn you!"
"Stop it!" I shouted. "It was no ones fault but mine. I shouldn't have done what I did... I regret it," I said looking at the bloody gash on my wrist. "Please... Lyle, can I speak to Mr.Cartier in private?" I asked.
"No..."
"Please?!"
"Fine," said Lyle and he obediently left the room. My heart was racing what should I say?!

 

"Why are you here?" I asked. I didn't look at him.
"I came to see you, why else would I be here?" he asked. He came over to me and sat next to me. He gently turned my face to look at me.
"What are you doing?"
"I want to look at you," he said. He smiled shyly at me and I smiled back. "Damn it... you really are a pain."
"Haha! Really? Do I annoy you that much?"
"Yes," he joked.
"I love you," I said softly. "I love you so much it hurts..."
"I know you do."
"Then why won't you accept my feelings? Why won't you just give me a chance?"
"Because..."
"Why because?"
"Because I can't forget Laura! Because you are younger! And because you are my student!" he placed a hand on his forehead and sighed. "Damn... you made me fall for..."
"Alright that's enough! What the hell is going on in here!" shouted Lyle as he burst into the room.
"Lyle!" I shouted. "Go away! Nothing was happening!"
"Damn right! Otherwise I'd have to kill your precious Rafe... haha," he laughed and then glared at Mr.Cartier.
"Stop being a jerk," I said quietly.
"I was only joking."
"Still! It's really annoying, the way you treat Mr.Cartier! It's not his fault for anything! I don't understand how you can be so rude! If anyone should be looked down upon it should be you!" I shouted at him.
"Why?"
"You know damn well why! You stole Laura away from Mr.Cartier and made her fall in love with you!"
"It was her decision not mine!" he shouted back. "I never loved her! I never loved her like I love you!"
"Damn you!" shouted Mr.Cartier. "All my life I believed you two loved each other! And she died because of you you as*hole!"
"Well at least she was good in bed," laughed Lyle.
That's when Mr.Cartier threw a punch at Lyle's perfect face sending him to the ground.
"Fu*k you!" he shouted and he graves me and his bag and left Lyle cowering on the floor.

 

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