This was the night. Or so I thought... Or so I thought... Or so I thought... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The humiliating scene wouldn't stop playing again and again in my head. What happened: "Stop," He says distractedly,"Not now. Not here." I don't pay any attention to what he says and continue mindlessly try to get his clothes off. "I'm serious. Stop," He continues this time completely determined to stop me,"You don't want to do this right now. And I'm not letting you. Rachel, I love you. So, I'm not letting you do this." "But I DO want this, Alek," I protest. Before I can do anything to stop him from making his decision, he just leaves. I sit there, embarassed and speechless. <><><><><><><><> That's where the nightmare ends. I burry my face into my pillow in shame. I wish I hadn't been so careless and caught up in the moment. Yet, even though I knew most of the scene was my fault, I didn't understand one thing. Wasn't it him who kissed me? Or even if it wasn't, hadn't he kissed back? Yes. He not only kissed back, but brought me to the couch. If he had felt what I felt, how could he stop himself from continuing? Was I THAT unattractive? ~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~> The next day at breakfast with both families, I did my head-bowed little walk of shame in front of Alek. It was horrible. HORRIBLE! With my peripheral vision, I could see him wryly smirking. Of course he was enjoying this. I ate speedily and excused myself from the dining table before anyone could object. A few minutes later Alek knocked on my door. Knowing it was him, I pretended I wasn't in the room. He knew i was in my room, so he entered uninvited. I turned away from him. "What do you want? Are you here to mock me?" "Remember? Today's my day on the date calendar." He replied. I could feel his words were in fact mockingly said. "Fine, where are you taking me?" I inquired. "You'll find out." And with that he took me by the wrist and lead me to the place I never suspected.
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I think I can only update on weekends because of school. -_- i hate school so much... well okay so enjoy!! <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> While he was driving, I was itching to find out where we were going. We barely talked in the car, but it wasn't exactly what you'd call awkward. It was more of a... sweet silence. By the time we arrived, I had imagined all the places he could possibly take me except here. The sight of children still playing here brought back so many memories. Coming back here was exactly what I needed. Alek always knew what I needed and that's why I loved him. "It's been so long, hasn't it?" Alek broke the long silence. "How did you think of bringing me here?" "I know you better than anyone; even you parents and I was thinking of where your heart would want you to be and from there it was pretty obvious." It was true. He knew me better than anyone and it showed especially now in this moment. "Wait... but what are we going to do? I'm 17 now," I laughed, "Are we going on the swings and slides?" "Well... the thing is... I didn't exactly think it through that far." He chuckled. There it was again. His laugh just made me want to fall for him. I turned to him and we stared into each others eyes. I was almost in a trance. His eyes, his nose, and his lips... He was so perfect. Alek leaned it for a kiss, but before his lips reached mine I ran towards the field next to the playground. I turned and stayed still. Alek stood there, looking at me with confused eyes. "COME AND CATCH ME!" I exclaimed remembering the game we used to play. Before I saw his reaction, I ran as fast as I could. I stumbled a few times, but nothing could stop me. I heard his quick footseps behind me. He was almost all caught up and I felt his hand brush my back as he reached for me. Finally, he got a hold of my waist. He pulled me close and hugged me from behind. Even his slight love sent electricity up my back, but this moment was magical. This is what love is, I thought. Love isn't just sex and kissing. It's what under the actions and words we say. The emotion that was under this hug was almost a spell. This is how I wanted to stay forever.