Because you have already chosen that nothing will work then of course nothing will work. You've tried and things got bad? Well, success is paved with failure.
Life is tough, but you need to work hard at it. Get through the shit and come out strong. In high school I was the bottom of my class (rank 419 out of 421), had such a bad addiction to alcohol and drugs I didn't think I would even see my 18th birthday. I met a girl that changed my life, supported me emotionally and eventually got clean. Despite hard work I still graduated high school at the bottom of my class. I joined the military and did a few years before I got injured - breaking both my legs in a jump drill because the wind picked up out of nowhere and when your options are to land in trees or jagged rocks you go for trees. So after recovery I went to the civilian police, I just recently left to go back to school and because of physical issues from my injuries I couldn't preform the job to MY standard and thought it best to leave before something happened to me or my partner cause I couldn't run fast enough. I've completed two Associates Degrees and I'm currently working on a Bachelors and I'm in the top of my class. I saw my 23rd birthday this year. I'm married to the wonderful woman that saved me in high school. Things to get better, but they take hard work to get there. Never ever give up.
protector, you should have read the rest of this thread before writing that paragraph wouldn't have just waisted your time