That first post sounds like some sick and twisted fantasy of yours. some of it wasn't bad but hey to each his own
Being about 85-90 in good health. Having all assets and moneys in order and in the right places. Having my husband of 60 plus years beside me. Going to sleep at night and just never waking.
It's not how I die but what happens after I die. I want the people I did group projects with in school to be at my funeral. So they can let me down again.