We arrived at the funeral, and as always, everyone is dressed in black. Such a depressive mood, only to be uplifted by peace to another person. The emotional pain I felt was horrid, and I felt at fault. I'm not as hurt now, but seeing her lying there lifeless in the casket was terrible. The blood drained from her body, and the life gone. I just now realize I am crying. My girlfriend Kate is sitting next to me crying as well, only worse. Tears going down her face, and leaning on my shoulder the whole time. I was wondering why she was crying so much when she did not know Sophie all that well. Anyways, I guess it doesn't matter. They said the prayers for the ceremony, and the casket was now closed and being gently let down into the ground. Afterwards, we got something to eat, even though I was feeling sick. I haven't spoken a word all day, Kate did all the talking, and I did nothing. I was tired, and inexplicably saddened by the death of my friend. I could not get the feelings out. The next morning, I woke up to Kate standing over me with a sad look on her face. "What is wrong?" "Wesley...I think you need some space, so I am leaving..." What I said was the most surprising thing, I did not chose the words. Bump for more!
"Ok Kate, abandon me in my time of need. I don't need you, you're not gonna be here anyways. You want to leave? Leave." I grabbed her arm, just tightly enough so she could not escape the grip, and put her out the door. "Wesl-" I shut the door in her face, I was more angry than possibly imaginable by those who haven't felt such feelings of resentment towards another person. I was not going to let her abandon me, so I abandoned her. I went through the whole day acting like a zombie, and I couldn't bring myself to act like anything else. I was having the worst day I could imagine. I loved Kate, but I guess in the end we all end up alone. Or do we? Maybe Kate wasn't the right one, or maybe she was. I am going to find out, and I'm going to make sure I make the right choice. I am not going to let her bring me down, I'm going to go out and date. I'm going to be the person I always hated. A person that dates so often, they can't even keep track of names. I don't know if this is a good idea, but I don't know if I could've not done it. I walked up to the prettiest girl in school the next morning, Kristen, and I asked her out on a date. Just in spite of Kate. I was expecting a no... Bump for more!