Nicole's point of view! I woke up Saturday morning with the radio on, 5 texts, and 3 missed calls. I went to check them. Dylan - hey babe, I'm sorry about yesterday, and about canceling. I was thinking dinner and a movie? Love you. I'll reply later. Alyssa - I can't do anything today, my mom is on another one of her weight loss sprees, you know the ones that last like a day, and we have to clean out the fridge and pantry then shop for health food. Sorry chicka! Poor Alyssa. Mom - Can you stay with Alyssa tonight? Going out of town for work. Thanks. Wow. Typical. Addison - Look, Dylan and I have something. Whether he realizes it or not, it's there. In the long run, you're going to get hurt sweetie. I'm a feeling saver here, it's for the best, end it before it gets to far. ~Addi What a witch. I cannot believe her. I'm not going to tell Dylan though. I don't need him more pissed at her than he already is. Mom- honey, I don't know if you've noticed, but today is "The anniversary" I'm sorry, I know how hard it's been the past two years on you. I love you. OhMyGosh. Today was the 2 year anniversary of my dads death. He was 48 and died of a heart attack. Too young for a heart attack if you ask me. I can't believe I forgot. I'll go see him later today. Thinking about him makes my eyes water. He was like my best friend. Now my mom filled the gap. It didn't feel the same, but she was always there when I needed to vent. -Missed calls- •Dylan •mom •mom I'll call my mom back on my way to the cemetery. To let her know I still care, and probably to hear a lecture on her going out of town. Oh well. I replied to Dylan first, it's okay, and yeah I'll do dinner and a movie. I just have some things to do before hand. Let me know what time and I'll be ready. I love you too. I texted Alyssa back next, yeah girlie, that's totally okay. I know how your mom gets. Haha, good luck! I wasn't even going to bother replying to Addison. She wasnt worth my time.
I got in the shower. I stayed in it for about 45 minutes. That was long for me. I was thinking about what Addison had said. Was there some sort of thing between her and Dylan? No. There couldn't be. Dylan wouldn't cheat on me... Would he? No, stop it Nicole, he's a good guy. He's not like the other. I can't believe I have to reassure myself that my boyfriend isn't cheating on me... I got out of the shower, wrapped a towel around myself, and headed to my room to find something to wear. I decided on some grey sweat pants and a pink Aéropostale shirt. I wore my hair down, I wore it natural, wavy. Just because I don't like my hair in my eyes, I braided my bangs to the side. Good enough for me. chirp chirp I heard my phone whistling to me. That's the sound of made when I got a text. Dylan - Sorry, I have to cancel on our date. We're um, going to plan Tori's funeral service. I hope you'll understand. Okay, so no plans with Dylan today. Eh, it's whatever. I grabbed my keys, got in my car, and drove the 25 minutes to the cemetery were my dad is buried. I got to his headstone, it was a tall, marble cross, with the engraving Christopher Davis 1964-2010, you will never be forgotten. In our hearts forever. Concrete Angel I started talking to him. Yes, my dad. Well, not necessarily him, his headstone, but I knew he was watching and listening. "Hey dad. I'm sorry I never visit you anymore. It's been hard. I can't think about you without crying. Mom is keeping it together. While she is in front of me atleast. I still hear her cry sometimes, I go check up on her and she'll have y'alls wedding picture in her hands. I may not have said this enough when you were here, but I love you. It's not the same. I play the exact game as mom. I keep chin up around other people, but I come home and just crumble. You used to tell me not to worry about what anybody thinks, keep my head up. I try dad, but high school is living hell. I'm sorry of I've disappointed you. Bye dad" And with that I got up and went back to my car. I sat in the drivers seat, put my head on the steering wheel, and cried. I hated not having my dad. When he first died, I wanted to die too. I just wanted to be with him. Hell, I still want to be with him. But I can't hurt myself, it would break my mother into pieces. I wouldn't never do that to her. She doesn't deserve any of this. I went on a rebellious streak after my dad died, and she had to live through it with me. If I could take that period in my life back, I would in a heartbeat.