It's okay I use to just read everything for at least two months before I joined a new RP and committed on some popular Fan Fics. Then I slowly entered more RP's and made my own Fan Fic, then I made my own RP (it died like a while ago because I lost my device) and now I'm back and I'm making a sequel with my collab partner Snow and I'm in a lot of (most haha) RP's. You just need to take stuff one step at a time, if you want to write a story try writing it with someone who has some experience under their belt๎๎๎๎