I had a crush on one girl for 4 years but eh... Didn't think it was divine or whatever. I met one girl and I could scarcely believe how well suited they were for me... I still don't really understand it. Like a perfect match that I doubt would ever be beaten...but you gotta keep your heart open... So I'ma wait. There's probs some divine intervention involved.
... she's really a freak in the sheets and you've decided she's worth that 14 hr drive? I mean.. you never did finish the story so I'm just going off that "shy girls are freaky" thing.
He probably used the ampersand (if it still has that issue) which deletes everything written after it
I have issues with my stuff deleting a lot halfway through a message. Never knew this was one of the (possible) reasons
That issue dates back to my 2011 forum days, but I've seen people use it and it doesnt delete anything so I thought it was fixed. Let's try it Boats & Hoes Edit: nope that's not an issue any longer it seems
One day my dog was barking Edit: It's an issue for me. My sentence, without the ampersand, was "One day my dog was barking (and) I shut the curtains (and) he looked sad so I gave him a yummy treat."
I'm almost never attracted to ppl so nah. The last 3 ppl i dated i wasn't attracted to until at least a month after we dated, one of them i was never attracted to and one of them i had attraction for like a week and then it disappeared. I am fickle and if i ever get married it probably won't be for love but more a financial security and companionship thing.
I thought it was meant to be until the signs never changed. He was toxic for me, but I realized that was because I put my happiness in him. So anytime he’d hang out with me, I’d be extremely excited. I had a high pitched voice every time he came around I was so happy. Then when he wasn’t around, which was a lot, I’d be so sad. It wasn’t until 2 and a half years of trying to be in a relationship where I wanted to be wasn’t working. He would hang out with everyone but me. Could I blame him? We were opposites with a little bit of similarities. So I’d be the one he hangs out with last, the one that gets to know why he didn’t talk to me for weeks, or last minute cancels on plans. The amount of times I let it go (especially when I was having a bad chemical imbalance) I couldn’t see past how broken our relationship came to be. I met him through an MMO and it was this dream. Like Kirito and Asuna type level. Unfortunately instead of me growing, I just wanted to be with him and he was always elsewhere. Whether it was with his friends or spending 8 hour grinding xp/money sessions with people he didn’t even like. So I ended it. Then about a year later I kept finding myself crying at certain times over him and I reconnected. The feelings never left and I wanted to be with him so bad. It was like everything he said was just how I wished he would say it. We were a bit unsteady at times but for the most part, it felt so right. Things were changing. Unfortunately, my life would get so stressful during those times we were together and whenever I had my crying spells from all of the stress of my life, he wasn’t there and if he even picked up the phone instead of rejecting it for days, I would feel like his words meant something when we got together. A few breakups getbacktogethers later, I decide to make an unexpected surprise visit to his state for a while. I needed a vacation, I just didn’t know it at the time. Well he only spent a few hours within 4 days spread apart. I should of realized how it wasn’t much of a difference from when we were just online. Eventually I come back and I finally settle myself down. We talked about living together when he graduates college and that everything was going to be amazing if I kept up with only two years of waiting. This was decided last year. Now he stopped a lot of communication and I kept telling him that it felt like nothing changed and we were able to mend through our relationship. All until 5 days ago. When Valentine’s Day came, it was so cute seeing all these couples do all these cute things to show each other their love. Regardless of it was the night before and they worked a crazy shift. So I waited for my bf to say something cute or at least say Happy Valentines Day. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Then I realized, how was this different from Christmas or my birthday. I even got him a gift for his birthday and had a cute note attached to it (I didn’t even have a job at the time). It wasn’t like I was super strict. I knew he was in class majority of Thursday’s so I gave it a couple days and I’d say how weird it feels that we aren’t talking and he wouldn’t reply to me. I knew at that moment no matter how many times he can tell me he’d wish he’d give me the world or that I’ll do anything for you was a load of bologna. So I let him go, and I was completely upset and said so much more than I wanted when I broke up with him. Then it wasn’t until two nights ago I had a dream I shot him. He had a gun pointed at me and I struggled and shot him. That dream wrecked me emotionally. It was like my heart was saying forget all those times before and go back. I was ready to go back to my failed relationship and he said we can only be friends. That felt like he just ripped my heart out. But what really happened is that the day I let him go, made me realize I left my happiness emotion with him. I let him take away my happiness and now I became this person no one recognizes anymore. Moral of my story is, don’t invest your happiness into a person. And if your girlfriend or boyfriend treats you this way, leave them immediately. Regardless of how much you love them, an emotionally abusive relationship is just as equivalent to a domestic violence relationship. You may think it’s the best decision now, but I let my heart lean too much into that.
That's the initial stage. Mature love (real love) is more similar to the love one feels for family and friends, deeper and less intense in emotions.
Sorry for what you had to go through, I can assure you it’ll be better. Someone once told me that time heals all wounds, I never believed then even though I knew it’s true. Everything will be ok. ??
Oh shizz.. my bad, i fell asleep and didn't wanna rewrite it again. I gotta go to work, but I'll be back later to finish telling y'all what happened.