Dear Bestfriend,

I heard footsteps coming towards my room! I almost squealed up and down with excitement in me. I don't think Brian heard but I ran out of the bathroom door to him.
"Someone's coming!" I shrieked.
"Why are you so happy?" he had a confused look across his face.
"Go hide!" I pointed every where with my hands.
"Where?" Just then the door to the basement opened and a large gush of wind pasted by me. The bathroom door shut with a loud clink and Brian was gone. My dad came running down like there was a robber.
"Need to use the bathroom!"
"Ahh! I have to use it!"
"You can finish your make-up later, baby bear."
"No dad!! I just took a dump in there it smells! Crap! I forgot to turn on the air vent! Give it a few minutes!" I practically screamed at the top of my lungs.
He just gave me a poker face and turned towards Torie. So, with what little time I had left. I ran into the bathroom.
I saw Brian with an extremely awkward look on his face. "What?" I said as he stared me down.
"You took a shit in here?"
"Me!? No! I was just telling dad a 'fib'."
"Oh thank god."

I heard a knock on the door. And so I opened it up. "Brian's here dad!" my dad actually went from his usual face to a huge grin on his face.
"Jose!" my dad yelled. "How have you been buddy?" he stuck out his hand for a hand shake. I just watched as they talked and listen to each other. I eventually walked over to Torie before she started crying.

I took her upstairs to feed her breakfast. I was in the kitchen and saw my mother.
"Good morning Sierra." my mother said in a gloomy voice.
"Hi mom."
"Sierra, can you tell my why the backdoor was unlocked this morning?" she said this in a harsh tone.
"Mom…" just with my luck. Annie came strolling by in her school outfit. She asked if she could see Torie and I handed her off to my little sister. I didn't want Torie to start crying while I had a screaming fest with my mother.

Annie walked into her room with Torie, which left just me and my mom.

"I'm not an idiot you know." she said.

"Mom, he needed a place to stay!" I was getting really pissed off.
"You had him walk in, without my permission! That is disrespectful!"

"Don't you dare start telling me what to do! He is the father of my child! He is aloud to come and go when he wants!"

"Your still a child your self! It's not right for children to be having children!" she wanted to start this up again. I had half an hour before I had to leave for school.

"First off, I'm not a child, I'm SevenTeen!! Teen, mom!! Second, she is an infant! Not a child!" my mom screamed something else but I was already in my sisters room.

"Are you alright?" she asked me kindly.
I pulled her closer to me and mumbled the words "Yeah." as she played with Torie. "Can you do me a favor?" I asked calmly.
"Sure…"
"Can you please get Apple Sauce for Torie?"
"Yeah."

Then she left the room. While I sat there in silence.

 

Coolio. Anyways. I'll. Update. In. 12. Or. So. Hours. 

 

I went down to my room and told Brian to start my car, I would be out there soon.

I was in the middle of changing Torie's outfit when Brian came back down. "What?" I was in no mood. "Left my phone…" I felt kinda bad for freaking out on him for no apparent reason. I didn't want to let anger out on him, that's what a journals for…right?

Whatever…

He ask of I need help and I reply with "No." 5minuted later I'm in the car buckling up a screaming baby. "Stay still Torie." she stopped screaming and started playing with the bear next to her car seat. I let out a loud sigh and get into the passenger seat.

Pretty much our whole way to school, Brian turned up the CD's music and sang with the words. I turn it off when we get into the school parking lot. "Thanks for driving. I probably would've freaked, and killed us all." we both laughed and he got Torie out of her car seat.

I could see she was recently asleep in the car. At my school, because there's so many teen Mom's they had to set up a day care, I really don't trust the teens that help out in there. None of them have children, I'm worried they scare the children. I almost slapped one of the teens that was about to take away one of toys.

Brian enjoys seeing Torie as much as possible. But most of the time when we come into the school, he begs for my to take Torie to day care while he goes and talks to the others in his group.

"Bye." I say squeezing Brian a good bye. And a quick kiss on the cheek, as he hands off Torie to me. He waves to me and starts running off to his group.

I scan the crowd of teenagers waiting to go inside, I finally spot the group I've spent all high school with, well after I had Torie. I wave to them and they wave to me. We all start walking towards each other.

There all teen moms too. I'm not the leader. It's actually a Senior, she was a gorgeous teen mom. She has an African look, and haired always pulled back to escape from her face. She has a son, and he's super cute.

We all have our children on our right shoulders and start laughing about what funny stuff our infants did last night. Some of the woman had two children or expecting another. We were not a pregnancy pack. Some people call us that because our children were the same age, but we arn't.

We heard the bell rang and we rushed to the day care. Our lockers and classes were all up stairs, and we only had 10 minutes.

I was finally able to hand off Torie to one of the volunteers. "Hi." they said to me. I faked a smile and waved. I kissed Torie on the cheeks, and walked out. I was running up the stairs when someone yelled my name.

"Sierra, wait!"

 

No. But, I might be a little behind today.

 

I saw it was a my teacher. And I realized I had 5 minutes left to run to class, but I still the time to smile and walk back down the steps, having my book bag smack me on my cramping hip.
"Hello Sierra," Mrs. Packson said" I was looking over your math test, and I noticed to didn't finsh." Damn, that's right.
"Oh, can I finish it in class today?"
"Well…" there was an awkward long pause,"I need you to take notes, and the test was Monday, today's Friday." I didn't see where she was going with this, so I stared at her blank fully. She continued,"I'll give you the answer you didn't finish another piece of paper, then you can finish it up at home."
"Umm, sure." I don't think I'll get my ass kicked for finishing a test at home.

Kids come to school, high, drunk, stupid, botchy, an ass, anyways you could think of. They banned cheerleading uniforms because of cheerleaders flashing people in the halls.

Today, I saw a girl in the hall, showing off her new tan, and naval piercing. I laughed remembering another girl in my group who use to be like that. 3 months from now we could offer her into our group.

Past

I almost walked out of the bathroom and getting caught listening to my mothers conversation. I hated every word that came out of her mouth. She was telling how horrible I was being today.

I picked up the dying phone in the bathroom. I was confused why it was in there, maybe someone had phone sex, I could've honestly cared less. I turned the phone on to talk and put it on mute. It was my grandmother.

(Blue=mom, red=grandma)
"Sierra's pregnant after 5 months of dating."
"I thought. I knew one of my grand children would come out as a skank."
I scheduled an abortion for her."
"Shes going with it? Wow."
"No, she doesn't know yet. I'll make up an excuse, and then do something."

I could hear my mom leaning up against the bathroom door and laughing. I didn't know what they were laughing about, but I couldn't hold it back. I burst open the door and started screaming random crap. Mostly I was control of my body, and I wasn't going to kill a life growing inside of me. And she can f' off.

thats why I moved out of my moms and into Brian's.

Later after school

Dear Bestfriend

Today, I got botched on by my mother earlier. I wish you could help me, help her, pay. Haha. In Young Parenting class, we had to write little quotes for our baby's. I heard a lot of amazing ones. Some were "Before I had you, I didn't have a soul mate." "I'll never leave you." one that made me stop and listen was Cassi's "Sex isn't for pleasure, or money. It's for making baby's. Not killing a creature inside of you." We all clapped. Brian's here. Have to get ready now, bye!

 

Botch was a word me, Lucy, and Becca used. I met Lucy through Becca, she was another teen mom in the group. I heard that her child was sent to live with her ex.

I reapplied some make up before I left to Brian's house. I guess he took the bus home. I even sent him a quick text.

Come around 5.
Okay. Why didn't you come home with me?
I took the bus.
Thought your mom was mad at you.
She might still be. But she wants me to come home today and see fam.
Okays. I'll come over soon, I'm just getting Torie ready.

No text back…

Past

I was really drunk when I came home. I screamed at my sister to leave the house for the night, until she was in tears in her room talking to my parents, which were both out of town.

I walked straight into her room and grabbed her phone. Put on my best sober voice and said,"We're okay." which they bought. Annie left the house in more tears and I couldn't care less.

I called my new boyfriend to come over, we were dating for 3 months now and had sex 3 times. I was really in a different mood tonight, it probably had to do with the alcohol.

He agreed to come over, and spend the night. A few minutes later I saw as his brothers car drove up, and dropped him off. I slipped into my sexiest garnet and had a robe on. I practically couldn't control myself. I didn't remember much actually. Brian would describe that night a few days. "Hey remember that night Torie was conceived?"

I arrived at Brian's house and saw a lot of cars around the house. "His cousins must've come to town also." I said, talking to my self.

I was getting Torie out of the car when I noticed something uncomfortable. There was a black SUV out in front of Brian's house.

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