Colour My World~

OMG! NOLAINE! WHAT'S THE CONNECTION?! 

 

Why bump this when its only my POV and the guy's POV? 

Thank you for the forum art, love xx

 

 Haha. It's fine!  There are other threads that are worth to be on top. 

 

Nolaine, Noooo' 

Toxic,  this isn't a story. But soon, if I have enough to say about the guy and I, then I'll update.  It's a real thing... About him and me. 

 

What to be happy about him loving me if he has a girlfriend?! 

 

WTF? How do you do that?! 

 

Okay, I feel like updating since something happened today. 
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ㅡGirl's POVㅡ

I sigh in grief as I stare at my phone. It's heartbreaking, but what my friend is saying is definitely true. I roll on my bed as tears starts streaming down my face. I grab my blanket and wait for her reply. It's getting so hard that I need someone to talk to.

I wipe my tears and then my phone rings. It is loud and clear, the old phone ringtone made my heart skip a beat. I look at the caller. It's my friend.

"H-hello?" I say as I sob.

"Get your act together you bitch!" She says, her voice in a high pitch tone, but with amusement in her voice.

A smile forms on my lips, "I'm sorry."

"Don't say sorry. Say sorry to your stupid self. Are you ******* crazy? He has a girlfriend? Do you want to be called a girl who steals others boyfriends?" She is serious now.

I roll on my bed again, trying to hide the pain away. I smile faintly and reply, "I know. I'm stupid. But I love him. I really do."

I hear her breathing deeply, "DEAR FRIEND! DO YOU NOT HEAR ME? WHAT'S THE POINT OF IT ALL?"

I feel a sting in my heart, I wipe the continuos flow of my tears and cover my face with the pillow. I mumble, "But I really love him." I whisper.

"WHAT?" She says.

"I REALLY LOVE HIM." I say as I throw the pillow across my room.

She sigh and says, "But he has a girlfriend. You know what I think...?"

I stand up from my bed and breathe deeply, I open the curtains and admire the clear blue sky. I sit down on my white soft couch as I exhale, "I'm an idiot. What is it?"

I can sense a faint smile on her, "If you're going to accept him. He will do it to you. The same way! Hell! He has a girlfriend and he's still flirting with others? WTF? Get yourself straight, love. You're not like this."

I nod and lie back on the couch still admiring the view, "Yeah. You're right. But I'm so weak. I love him. I am distancing myself from him, but I can't barely take it."

"Damn it, love! Please! Hear what you are saying right now! You sound like a ******* hopeless romantic! An idiotic girl!" She screams and hangs up the phone.

She's right. I know why she's mad. I understand her. If it's gonna be like this, I will have to stand up again. I can't let him affect me. In the future, I know I'd be like... "he was just a mere boy, that I once loved."

I sigh and look back at my phone. His picture. His smile. His eyes. Everything about him I love. He's perfect to me. Not a single flaw, I see.

I kiss the picture on my phone, I love you.

DING DONG

A message.

"Stand up, love. Don't let him affect you. Your life would be a mess if you're going to act stupid. Don't be someone that we will label as a girl who steals boyfriends. It sucks. Even if he loves you, it would still be the same. Think about it. Please. I don't want you to get hurt. -Friend"

Tears still streams down my face. My heart desiring for love and pain. Heh. Pain. It's so addicting.

I go downstairs and see no one. I am alone. Alone in this big world. Alone in my life. I directly go to the kitchen. And slowly I walk dramatically to the utensils.

I see a knife. A sharp bladed knife. I sigh in pain.

I touch the edge of it, pushing it into my skin. Blood. The beautiful colour. Red.

I break down into tears on my knees, still holding the knife. I slowly let it touch my wrist. And pushed it, and slashed it.

Pain... pain. How come you're so addicting? How come heartbreak finds way to come to me?

Everything I do, I lose in a single blink.

I love you. I really do. So much.