June 1st As I'm sitting in my living room with comfy shorts on and my frumpy sports bra while I'm upside down on my couch, bored out of my mind; the doorbell rings and scares the crap out of me. I jump up off the ground and run to the door. I slowly open it trying to stay behind the door, "Um hi?" I squint my eyes as they adjust onto Drew's face. "Hey... Sorry about the beach the other day..." His apology nearly knocked me off my feet. "Um no it's alright? So... You've come to check on me again?" He smiled and pulled a piece of paper out of his pocket. "Well no and yes? I've actually come to invite you to this party I'm going to tonight? It's just at a friends... And I don't like anyone there. So would you want to come?" "Well... Would I know any of these people?" On the inside I was literally screaming my lungs out 'YES'. "No offense but... No. You wouldn't know them they're the more... Um... Ya know 'popular' types I guess" he scratched the back of his head. "Um well.... I guess? Are you sure you want to bring me? The girl you have to babysit? Haha" He smiled and awkwardly laughed. "Yeah I'm sure, I'll pick you up at like 8?" "Sure." I smiled and closed the door as he turned and walked away. Then from pure happiness I silently lost my cool and flipped out on the floor as puddles barked along. 〰〰 As I'm getting ready putting my make up on, a cute shirt and shorts and as my heart beats faster and faster. I finally finish getting ready and try to sit still on the couch as I'm amazingly happy. My first actual 'popular' party. And then. I ended up sitting there from 7:30 to 9:00 waiting. Waiting. Waiting. I kept thinking 'Oh maybe he's just running late' well that's bull. I got up and marched out of my house right up to his door and right when I was going to knock on that door as hard as I could I heard shouting, screaming, glass breaking and my heart pounding in my ears.
June 1st (continued) I had stood there with my fist up to the door trying to process what I was hearing. Just standing there frozen. Until I heard someone coming right for the door and I freaked. I jumped off the side of their little porch into the bushes. Right as I did Drew came storming out of his house and I could still hear his mother screaming at him as he slammed the door behind him. He ran down the steps and right over to my house. And I was in deep deep crap at that moment. He knocked on my door pacing on my porch. While he was turned away I ran across our lawns to the back of my house like I was Usain Bolt. I crawled in through one of my back windows ever so grateful I was too lazy to close it and went to the front door. Covered in sticks and pieces of the bushes I opened the front door and when Drew looked at me he had tears in his eyes. We just stood there looking at each other for a long time. And then he came in. "Macie I'm just. I'm so sorry I didn't mean to stand you up I just had some issues at home and.." He was now pacing in my living room as I stood there not knowing what to do. I saw blood on his arm, and then the huge gash it was coming from. "Oh my god drew your arm." I went over to my sink to get a wet towel and placed it on his arm. "Sit down somewhere" He took the towel and sat on my couch with his head down. "I just... I'm so sorry" he started to cry a little and then it got louder and louder. Jeez this boy could cry. I sat down next to him as he laid into me and we just sat there against each other for hours as our breathing turned rhythmically and neither of us wanted to move. And soon we both slowly drifted into sleep while my shirt was wet with tears and his face red and puffy from crying. 〰〰 I woke up to sizzling bacon as I turned over and realized I was laying down with a blanket over me. "Drew?" I leaned up and stretched while I looked around my living room and kitchen. "One sec!" He yelled from the bathroom. He came out and smiled at me. "Ya know, you look so beautiful when you're sleeping." I blushed wildly. "Oh... Well thank you, you making breakfast for me now too?" I laughed a little and smiled. "Well do you mind? You like eggs right?" He said with actual worry in his voice... It was sweet. "Yeah I love eggs, thank you so much." I got up and walked over to the kitchen with my blanket wrapped around me. I got the table set as Drew finished up making the breakfast and once he was done we sat next to each other and dove right in. We sat in silence for awhile until I couldn't take it any longer. "Drew what happened last night?" I tried to make it seem like I didn't really know much. "Oh... Nothing... Just some like issues with my mom..." He looked down at his plate and picked at his food. "Drew..." I grabbed his hand "you can tell me... I'm here for you" I smiled a little as he looked over at me. "Ummm well... How do I put this..." He scratched his head with his free hand and then really, really looked at me. "Macie I can't go back there." I just looked at him not understanding. "What do you mean?" I tilted my head. "I can't live there anymore. I've been kicked out by my own mother..." He looked back down at his food in shame. Then he looked back at me "I know it's a lot to ask but could I maybe stay here with you? While I sort everything out of course." "Oh." I was taken back, waaay back. "Um I don't know I mean I guess you can? It's only me here do I mean like yea...?" I squinted my eyes a little. And at that moment he jumped up with the biggest smile on his face. "Thank you so much Macie you are a life saver!" He leaned down to kiss me on the cheek. I blushed and looked down. "Haha you're welcome." He cleaned his plate and turned around to look at me. He sat down across from me and leaned into me. I for sure thought he was about to kiss me, I'm about to close my eyes and lean in when he almost screams "You're such a great friend!" Then leans back up and goes back to the dishes. And just like that I am let down yet again. Crushed by this boy yet again. And then I make a plan and I'm sure as hell it'll work. It has to work.