Quick update before tonight! Enjoy! ----------------------------- I completely ignored Bailey and her advice. People were indefinitely going to find out who I was to Dominic once the baby arrived, there was no way to avoid it and to be honest it was no body's damn business. Once I got home Dominic was right behind me but part of me thought it was needed to ignore him. I couldn't explain the feeling it was just I didn't want him to think I was needy, clingy or overly attached. The night went by slow, Dominic came in my bed kissing my stomach and fell asleep shortly after. I was about to go to bed when Dominic's phone buzzed on the opposite nightstand, I got up prepared to tell Ben he's sleeping but the message caused for a different outcome, "baby, why'd you stand me up? I miss you" I slammed his phone down and went to bed. The next morning I didn't speak to Dominic but he tried his hardest to start conversation. Dominic kissed me before leaving to the studio saying he would be home around five, I walked him to the door and mumbled "you sorry low life cheating son of a bitch."
The whole day was slow, I was angry at Dominic but I wasn't going to say anything but I'd drop hints that I already knew what he did. I decided to message him; "I think we need our break. You're right, we need to be away from each other." My hands shaking from the anger made me make more mistakes than I thought. I messaged Ben "did you know Dom was cheating? Don't tell him or talk to him about it, I don't want him to know that I know but tell me the truth, please." I somehow thought that maybe the girl was a star-struck fan or girl just over obsessed with him, I didn't want to jump to assumptions when it could be a harmless message. Dominic wasn't happy about my message and I wasn't happy with the one he got last night and apparently Ben blew it for me; "shawty, I ain't got a fucking reason to cheat on you, stop tripping and calm down. You're the one that has every damn thing I need. She's annoying and obsessed, she's an ex. That's all she is." I sighed of relief but I was mad at his attitude now; "you stop being defensive, you need to calm down, do you think I knew about her? You never said you had an obsessive ex." He never replied me back but Ben wrote me; "I'm sorry, P. you and Dom need to stop bickering fa'real. If you need me you know where I'm at. Oh, Dom wants to see you." Nervously I went and got dressed quickly. I arrived at the studio and walked in and went to recording station, "what, Dom?" I sighed annoyed, he looked up at me "why are you so damn mad for?" Spinning in his chair over to Trey, "because your attitude, Dominic. You NEVER once told me about her, if you did do you think we'd be here right here? No, the message would of done been long forgotten," "so, now you know. Move on, Paisley." We bickered for ten more minutes before I finally broke down, "fuck you, Dominic. Lets see your phone." I threw mine at him, "I have nothing to hide, if you don't then you'll give me your phone." He looked at me angry while he dug for his phone and slammed it down. I searched through his messages in his inbox and wasn't very happy, the anger however didn't return back until I seen the sent messages. "Fuck you, Dominic. I'm gone, I'm done." He threw his head down on the desk, "Paisley, stay." He begged in a soft whisper not looking at me, I could tell he was hurt but I needed to leave. "I gotta go, Dominic." I started walking out the door and to my car when the car door slammed almost closing on my finger, "DOMINIC!" He pulled me into him in a tight hug, "your fat rosy cheeks, your high pitch squeal you get when you're angry and calling my name, your hand motions, your lil' strut when your mad and the scrunch on your nose with your angry face. I love it all, you're adorable when you're mad. Paisley, I'm not gonna make up a lie to cover me up in hopes you forgive me, in honesty I don't know why I did it, I wasn't in a sober state, I'm not proud of what I did and I can admit I cheated and I'm sad you had to find out this way instead of me coming to you." " I don-don-don-don't wan-wan-wanna leave, Dom-Dom-Dom-Dom-Dom-Dominic." I heavily sobbed into his chest, he rocked me back and forth while rubbing my back, "I don't wanna leave you either, beautiful. I don't want to watch you leave. I swear you're the best thing to happen to me." I hugged on him tighter and I felt his eyes on me, I looked up at him and he kissed me.
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The next day was great, Dominic took me out everywhere, we went on the boardwalk, the beach, riding around, go-karts, to eat, the carnival and took me to this look-out spot where we kissed. "Paisley, you're special in my life I swear, right hand to God. We got a bond and we can't be broken, I just wanna put you on the front cover of every magazine and let them see what I got, you're a one in a million, P. My miss America. I think I can easily say that no matter what you decide to do, leave me, change schools, change jobs or whatever I'll always love you." "Dominic, I know we have our moments, I would never leave you but if I did, I'd come back every single time. I swear I feel like you belong with me." He nodded as he walked towards me, "perfect couples are only in movies, I know you hate us bickering and how it kills you, you hate crying all night but it's like we feed off it, like it makes our relationship more alive. " I agreed with Dominic, in a way he was right and to admit it it made us realize we were more serious than thought and that we were also addicted to each other. We couldn't stand to be away from one another and times we bickered like we hated each other, I knew that if he left he would come right back and same went for me. "Dominic, do you think that if we changed things back then that it would all be different today? I mean we have our relationship and it's our own definition of perfect in our relationship but do you ever wonder what it would be like if we took it at a different approach?" He sighed deeply, "I have, Paisley and no, I'm not changing a damn thing. I'm trying my hardest, Paisley, my HARDEST to be the best boyfriend you ever had. You're not like those other girls, they were a one night thing and Paisley, you, YOU'RE more than that. You're so much more than a booty call, so no, I don't want to approach our relationship differently, because you're not worth hurting. Damn it, Paisley, you make me wanna just say 'fuck it' and go M.I.A on everyone even my momma, you make me just wanna not tell anyone and move in with you, I never thought of marriage but I seriously would walk my in love sappy ass down to Kay's and let you pick out your ring right now." I could hear the truthfulness in his yelling, he was sincere and yet I found some of it funny. "Dominic, I love you. I really do" he put his arms around me "I love you, Paisley."
The farther I started getting along in my pregnancy the more and more Dominic and I bickered, I couldn't help but feel like it was my fault because of my moodiness but I wasn't the one to start it. Dominic would tell me to stop whining and I would respond that it was his fault for knocking me up, and that's what started the bickering. Ben, Trey and Yukon found it quite amusing at the things him and I bickered about but always stepped in when enough was enough. The bickering caused for Dominic to 'go hard' in his verses in a few of his songs, he made a song for his crazy ex and recording it he let his anger out. He made a couple of songs for me which were actually sweet and really good, I couldn't wait to play them in my car. After Dominic and I bickered it was hard for him to keep his hands off of me, I liked this side of Dominic since I didn't get this side of him that often, I guess that's why I bickered with him, to get the romantic and sweet side out of him. It sounded bad to admit it but I didn't want to tell him that I bickered with him to get the side of him I wanted when i couldn't have it 24/7. Dominic said he was writing a song for me but never let me read the lyrics, he wanted it a complete surprise, that made me nervous. He wouldn't let Yukon, Trey or even Ben in to hear it when he was recording it. Since all four of us had to leave the studio so that we couldn't hear Dom's song we usually just went to eat somewhere, Ben and Trey loved to make fun of my belly and how I ate. I liked hanging out with the guys, they were like my brothers, they looked out for me in any way possible. They made fun of me sometimes and embarrassed me but they were the only ones allowed to. "Have you thought of baby names?" Ben asked me with curiosity, I hadn't even found out the gender, how was I going to get a name? "Not yet, I want to find out the gender first. Since Dominic is keeping this song from me I'm going to keep the gender from him." Yukon and Ben both laughed, "that's a great idea, P." "What if it's a boy?" Yukon interjected, "well, I thought about DJ, D for Dominic and J for Ben." Ben looked at me, "really?" I nodded my head yes, "Paisley! That's adorable!" He cooed. He stopped and looked at Trey, "not that I would know anything about adorable." I laughed, "Ben, it's cool." Once we finished up I drove the guys to Subway, I was getting Dominic something, his favorites. I got his sandwich just how he liked it, his drink and cookie, I drove to the gas station and got his Monster energy drink, a grape Swisher and two cigarillos. I heard the guys talking once I got to the car, "shit I wish my girlfriend spoiled me like this. Hell, I'm lucky if she wears my shirt." Yukon whined, "at least you have a girlfriend, Yukon, shut yo ass up!" Ben said sadly, "aww, Ben it's good to be single once in a while." As I pulled out, "for two years?" My face went blank, 'nothing to do here' I thought. "Well, hope for the best" I reassured him. I couldn't help but wonder if Bailey would be interested in Ben J, but I knew she loved Diggy ever since she introduced me to Dominic back at the club. I figured it couldn't hurt to ask, I waited to stop at a red light before I messaged her quickly about it, "you're a fast texter, P" Ben complimented, "thanks, it's just Bailey." I mumbled. I checked my phone once we made it back to the studio and her reply was; "OMG! I'd love to meet him, I'll come by the studio and pretend we're going out for a while." I smiled and gathered Dominic's things before heading in. I walked in to the recording area and held up the two bags for Dominic, he came out with a curious look on his face but also knew what I did. I handed him the Subway bag with his sandwich, cookie, Monster drink and his Subway drink. "I freaking love you, Paisley." He smiled widely and I smiled back at him, "this bag is the real surprise" I smirked holding it up. He looked at me curious, "eat first, surprise later," I kissed his forehead and went into the lounge while he finished up the song, I got a pack of chips out of the vending machine and opened them when I heard my name. "Yes?" I called back too lazy to get up, "come here, babe!" Dominic shouted, "my damn feet hurt!" I answered tired, Dominic came in the lounge with a grin, "come here" he smirked. The smirk, his white tank top with his 6 pack showing through, his face, his eyes, his light skin muscular arms and the way he said 'come here' had my legs weak, my head dizzy and I pictured I looked like a Hershey bar on a sidewalk on a hot day. I walked over to him pulling him into me kissing him deeply, my arms around his neck closed the door behind him. My mouth going to his neck drove him crazy causing him to take off his shirt and then mine, his soft hands explored every inch of my exposed and ready body, I wanted to call out his name but with people within hearing range would know so I bit my lower lip in pleasure. We continued on for twenty minutes because Ben was wanting his drink. Dominic went to the door and couldn't keep a straight face around Ben, "what's up with you, bro?" Ben asked like Dominic had taken cocaine or something, "nothing, just Paisley and I had some counseling earlier." I didn't hear a response from Ben so I imagined he nodded his head. Dominic and I had code words for several things, we used to call sex 'counseling,' but that's become 'therapy,' and fooling around is now 'counseling,' it worked around our friends, they never knew they just thought it was real. "Dominic, I invited Bailey over, she's pretending her and I are going somewhere but I want her to meet Ben J." I whispered to him, "you think she'll like him?" I shrugged my shoulders hopefully at him as I stood up to go out and wait on her.
Later that night Dominic and I got into a major argument over the baby, it was a serious yet infantile subject. We had discussed that Dominic was going to move in with me when the baby arrived but he thought I should move in with him and Ben. The argument caused for me cry and sob like I've never cried before, I stormed out of the studio and hoped in my car. I drove to the look-out spot Dominic took me to, buried my head down on the steering wheel and just let all my crying out. I didn't understand why Dominic was doing this to me, how he could just say such harsh words to my face and be serious about it, like he didn't care if it made me sad or angry. I thought I was just dreaming, that I would awake from this horrible nightmare in bed with Dominic but sadly it was reality, there was no dream about this. Nothing I could do or say would take me back to the day we first met. I felt confused, how could Dominic tell me seriously he could marry me right now but yet seriously yell at me to go to hell? Was it just anger talking or was he serious? My phone lit up the dark car inside with a message from Ben; "where r u, P?" I replied back and threw my phone angrily into the passenger seat. The more I tried to calm down and stop crying so I could breathe the more my crying picked up. Thoughts in my head of when him and I where at our happiest,the jokes and memories we had in my car. The photo of me grabbing his chin at a stop light to turn my head, kiss him and take a photo of it, the other photo Ben took of him and I in my car in the backseat and I'm leaning up to get my face in and Dominic with his arm around me with his tongue out. The photos stared at me like a neon sign behind the steering wheel resting against the dash where my speedometer was. I seen headlights pulling in but I figured it was a man who just got off work, got his check cashed and was looking for a lucky night with a street walker. The door of the car had opened and slammed shut, I looked into my side mirror to see Ben walking up to my car, 'shit' I thought to myself as I quickly tried gathering myself up to look 'fine.' "P, you okay? Can I sit with you?" He asked outside my window, I cleared my throat and wiped my nose with the inside of my palm, "yeah sure." I grabbed my phone while we walked around the front of my car to the door, "Paisley, what's been going on? Are you and Dom okay?" I held back tears, I bit my tongue to stop from thinking about the times, "I don't know, Ben. It's like when we're like this I want to leave him but I can't, I don't want to leave Dominic for anything, he just makes me so angry! Sometimes I wonder if he really does love me how much he says he does, I show him I love him but I want him to start showing me." "Paisley, you KNOW Dominic loves YOU, just don't let your head assume things, I know it's hard to but past the assumption he may have or is cheating, is or has lied to you or anything but Dominic would destroy the world if anyone messed with you. Shit, I'd be right there with him." I smiled and shed a few tears at the thought of Dominic with a machine gun going wild with anger. It made me laugh a little inside, "why are you and bickering so much for?" Interrupting my thought of Dominic, "I'm hiding something from him, Ben and I'm afraid as hell to him." ------------- What do you think Paisley is hiding? Comment what you think and see if you're right in the next update!