Update ________________ I sat in science day dreaming about him, Jake. I felt so bad and guilty, but it was for the best.. Wasn't it? I stared at him sitting at the front of the class trying not to be to obvious that I wasn't doing any of the work and not listening to a word the teacher was saying. " Hey, Kels. Don't beat yourself up about it!" "And how do you expect me to do that!? I feel so bad and stupid and-" Kelsey kindly decided to cut me off by putting her hand over my mouth. " Shush, it isn't your fault! " she exclaimed slowly taking her hand off my mouth. I said nothing back and rested my head on the table as tears formed in my eyes. Why was I crying? I loved him, but I don't now! I am over him.. 'C'mon Kels, be strong!!' I silently whispered to myself.. Thinking of that I lifted my head up from the table and wiped to warm tears off my cheek. And for the rest of the lesson I just doodled on my book, trying hard not to doodle his name.. Soon enough the bell went, I gathered my things and walked to the cafeteria for lunch with Annie. We sat down at the usual table, where we all used to sit. Then Jake and Ash came to sit down next to us, I was puzzled.. " Uh.. Can we help you?" I turned to Ash and shrugged " it's still our table isn't it?" Smirked jake. " Uh.. Yeah, sure. I.. I'm not hungry anymore." I pushed my food away and grabbed my bag quickly aiming for the door. " Nice going boys. " Yelled Annie as she quickly picked up her bag and ran after me. The boys just sat there smirking eating their lunch. " You might want to finish all this! You will need the energy" laughed Ash. Annie continued to run after me and ignored the boys, but I heard them. And that sentence never left my mind.. It wouldn't go away, it just kept repeating itself in my head, echoing for the rest of the day. What did it mean? ___________________ Hope you guys like it.. Sorry if there is some mistakes in there!
Im sorry guys... Tonight for sure there will be an update.... Wasnt feeling to good yesterday so I thought I'd update tonight
Update!!!!! I walked off to the parking lot. Why was this happening to me? Why did he have to come to our lunch table? I mean I know it's his table too, but to sit next to us? Why couldn't he and Ash sit a few seats away or something? And what did they mean by that statement? Finish what? This isn't good. I have a feeling Jake is going to bother me today. "Kelsey wait up!!" "Annie take me home. Please?" "But, Kels there's still 2 more periods till school ends. We cant just up and leave. Besides don't let Jake and dunder head Ash get to you." "I know but Jake is still on my mind. Annie I do lobe him but he is just so clingy and he is heard to please." "I know Kels. You just have to pull through. Please Kels stay till school ends and we can go out shopping afterwards" "Fine. But only for you." Annie hugged me and we made our way to our lockers. When I opened my locker I felt a hand on my shoulder. I froze and thinking if it might be Jake. The grip tightened. I flinched and swung around. My fist connecting to my brother's face. "Oh my god! Troy! Im so sorry!" "Damn it Kelsey! You have on hell of a swing!" "Im so sorry!" "Its fine. I just came to say good-bye I'm leaving to college today remember." "Oh yeah.... Umm... Bye" I looked down and hugged Troy. We paused for a moment and said our goodbyes. I glanced over at Annie. She had a tissue ready for me. I grabbed my binder and the tissue and slammed my locker shut. We headed to our history class, I saw Jake standing there with Ash goofing off. My heart tightened. I had the feeling of throwing up in my stomach. As we neared the class my heart raced. Why was I so anxious? So nervous and terrified? Come on Kels, You can do this. Just pretend he isn't there. My heart ached for Jake even more. Seeing his tall body, his slim but muscular torso and his strong arms. I looked at the floor trying to hide my tears as they fell to the floor. "Ummm... Excuse me" I tried to hide the sobbing but failed miserably "Oh! Looky here! Kelsey! Hi baby doll! What's the matter? Why the long face" Jake joked "Jake please.... Let me get to class" "Why? Don't wanna talk to me" "Jake move!!" Annie yelled and pushed him out the way. "Hey! Don't touch my bro like that Annie!" Ash barked "Shut your face Ash! Come on Kelsey lets go before we're late." I rushed passed them, crying uncontorllably. I stopped in my tracks and turned to Jake. He was staring at me, staring at the mess of tears falling. I cried more just looking at him. I turned and started running to class with Annie. All I could do was cry, cry for what I threw away with Jake. But, like I told myself before. It was for the best wasn't it? Pixie's turn!