UPDATE Finally •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• "Now if you'd like to place something in the casket now would be the time." the priest says loudly. I walk over crying as hard as I can. I place her favorite flowers, purple tulips and her baby blanket. She gave it to me when we were 9.... Just returning the favor. I was the last one to place something in so after I walk over to Andrew they slowly lower the casket. I cry into Andrew's chest he's trying so hard to be the steady man for me but I know he's losing it. I look up at him. "Andrew.. Babe let go its okay to cry it shows your love" He looks down at me and sheds a tear and kisses me. I bury my head into his chest and he starts to cry. Our parents come over and join us and we all just cry together. ~~~~~ Andrew still hasn't spoken a word to anyone after the burial even me. He locked himself in his room and won't come out. It's scaring me. That night I go to bed without seeing him and it breaks my heart. I think about us lying awake in my bed for a while. Then it hits me. "We never told Lexi" I whisper softly to myself. And at that second Andrew walks in wearing nothing but a robe and looks at me. "I was thinking the same thing all day..." he says just standing there. I want to rip off his robe but now would not be an appropriate time. "What are we gonna do?" I say restraining myself. He rubs his face and looks at me with his tired red puffy eyes. "I have no idea Maggie... I mean can we still be together?" My heart sinks. Lower then my throat or stomach.. Like I just don't have one anymore. The sharp pain comes to my chest and I look up at him with tears in my eyes. He sees them and looks away. "Maggie... Can we?" He says softly into the floor. I get over being sad and I slowly get angry. Angry at Andrew, Lexi, the jerk who hit us, the stupid song we listened to. Just everything. ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••
The way you write this story is amazing, so much detail. Have you actually been through something like this?
UPDATE •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• I wake up the next morning with red puffy eyes and a headache. That was so rough I can't believe I threw that at him... I was just so upset I didn't want to say anything but get out... I finally get up and open my door. He was standing there pacing in front of it. Our eyes lock. "Maggie I-" I cut him off. "I seriously just want some breakfast before I get into any of this crap... Just leave me alone till I'm done eating Andrew" He looks at me with a broken expression on his face. And I head downstairs without a word and silently eat my breakfast. I sit at the table for a long time not wanting to go back upstairs. Longing the conversation we will have to have. He comes running downstairs and stands there staring at me. Before I can say another word he blurts out "Maggie I love you" I stand there having no idea what to do... All I can get out is a squeak and cover my mouth. He walks over to me and I back up into the counter. "Maggie... I really do... I was scared last night and upset about Lexi... I don't know what I was thinking an I'm so sorry I-" I rush into his lips and longingly kiss him. He kisses right back. Everything is perfect again but I still feel that shoot of pain, heartbreak in my chest... But why? And soon I figure it out. ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••