I'm so sorry u didn't update, in for sure updating today. Writing it right this second & I'm excited!
After breakfast I got Charlay dressed to go see Mark, I was so nervous to run into...him that my hands were shaking. Once she was ready I got ready myself in a floral sundress that fit my curves perfectly and showed off my long legs. I like to look good wherever I go, I'm definitely not dressing up for...him. I did light make up and waved my long hair out onto my shoulders. Then I slipped on a pair of Orange Toms that went perfect with the dress and with a last unconscious shiver I left with Char and Ryan. We pulled up to the hospital and found a parking spot quickly. I pulled Charlay out of her car seat and unwrinkled her Orange sundress and slipped on the brown sandals she stubbornly kicked off. It was a gorgeous fall day and perfect for our summertime attire believe it or not. I grabbed hers an Ryan's hands to cross the rest of the parking lot to the huge entrance doors of the hospital. With a shaky breath and a hand through my hair we entered and checked in at the visiting center. Making our way to Marks room, Ryan squeezed my hand in comfort and Charlay was extremely quiet, she was so mature for her age it was unsettling. We reached his door and the moment of truth when I would be forced to recognize all of this as really happening would be here, no nightmares no nothing. I stopped abruptly and took a deep shaky breath just staring at the door. I looked to Ryan and he just nodded his head in approval. I knocked lightly before we all entered the surprisingly large room, mom and dads donations to the hospital actually did something...my eyes searched the room and rested on Mark, I choked back a sob as my eyes took in all the wires hooking him up to machines, I could hear his heartbeat being registered on one of the monitors. He was beaten up pretty badly but I couldn't look at him much longer without feeling the crushing grief as if he were already dead start to consume me. Then I saw mom and dads things by a couch but they weren't in the room. " Your mom and dad left to get something for us to eat Ryan." My whole body stiffened when I finally noticed someone's back to me in a chair by Marks bed. " We aren't really hungry, we just ate breakfast but thanks..." No he was going to say his name, " Charlie." His name struck me hard, its been so long since I've heard it... "We? I thought you were the only one able to make it today.." his sentence stopped short as he slowly turned around and his eyes landed on me then Charlay and back to me. "Yeah Chassidy made it down late last night with Charlay.." Ryan said awkwardly as Charlie was frozen with shock. He was unshaven but in that sexy bad boy way, his black shiny hair was messy as if he ran his fingers through it numerous times, his lovely hazel eyes held disbelief as they kept darting between me and Char, and he was still all lean muscle and...desperately sexy. God why was I thinking about having my way with him in the adjoining bathroom right now? I'm so horrible, but I can't help it when the familiar ache came back. "Chass...w-who is this?!" He finally managed to sputtered out with a hint of thinly covered jealousy as he continued to stare at Charlay. I don't know why he hasn't connected the dots yet, she looks just as much like him than I. "My daughter Charlay." I managed to sound solid and dismissive. He sucked that information in and let it out. "Charlay.." he breathed, I never thought I'd hear him say her name,it felt so good. She smiled sweetly at him although she had no clue who he was. His breath caught in his throat when something inside of his mind clicked, " Whose her father?" Shock filled me, along with anger; could he not see their resemblance?! I named her after him for Gods sake! I've only ever been with one man, him. He took my virginity and never said another word to me, when I found out I was pregnant I never said a word to him either. I refused to expose my daughter to someone incapable of feelings so I left before he had a chance to hurt her.. "Yours, you idiot." Ryan spat out. Disbelief once again clouded his face. Charlay looked up to me in surprise. "He's my daddy?" She asked quietly her hand clutching mine desperately. "Yes honey..." I answered softly looking down at her hopeful face.
"What?!" An angry voice sounded, everyone's head turned towards the bed that apparently a very awake Mark layed in. He was furious and glaring at Charlie. " is that true? You slept with my sister?!" "I...um.." Charlie was at a loss for words and I was frozen with shock, apprehension washed over me. "Mark look this isn't something..." Ryan began but Mark cut him off. "Excuse me?! Stay out of it Ryan. Charlie! Answer me now." He weighed his words down heavily with threat and I was honestly scared that if he wasnt hooked to machines he'd be murdering Charlie right now. "Yes.." he answered softly looking away from Mark. His eyes darted up to me quickly, then away. " how long ago?" The venom only grew in his voice. "Ah..uh...like three years ago. It was a mistake and we were both drunk and-" "You are calling my sister a mistake?!" Ryan and Mark asked angrily; honestly his words felt like a slap in the face. The tears came out of nowhere and when Charlie looked at me again he noticed them and instant regret flickered in his eyes. "Chass..wait I didn't mean it like that." He got out of his chair but I already scooped Charlay up and began running like hell to get out of there. "Chassidy!" Ryan came running out after me. "No Ryan, I won't be a mistake and I won't let Charlay be one either." I rushed past the check in desk and out the doors. "Hey no. You and Charlay will never be a mistake! Regardless of what Charlie says. Actually fuck Charlie. You are here for Mark, not him." He grabs me once I stop running. I was inhaling rapidly as he forced me to look him straight in the eye. I relaxed almost immediately and shuffled Char more onto my hip, I had made my decision. "He's awake now, I no longer need to be here. You can get a ride from our parents right?" I turn and start towards my car and unlock it. I set Char down to unlock her door and put her in her seat and closed the door again. Then I got into the drivers away and started the ignition. "No wait you can't go now." He yelled slamming his hands down on the driver window. Char let out a squeal and I put my car in reverse, tearing out of the parking spot. Then I rolled down my window to speak. "Bye now." And I was gone.
I'll try sometime today; I'm incredibly busy and have an away basketball game today...so no promises but for sure there'll be TWO updates tomorrow if we win!