It is like I'm looking in a mirror and I don't like what I see. I see a shadow of a man who I used to be. Things may come and things may go. All I know is life is different then it should. I may not remember my past nor may I know my future. It's hard to know what we see in the world that is hiding from me. We know not what I see nor know what it needs to be. I just know the present, in all it's majesty. I have hopes for the future to be majestic. Let's see if that will come true. I know the hardships I've gone through to get here. They sure are called hardships for a reason. I have fallen flat on my face many many times. It hurts, but I've learned to get back up and live with the pain. The worst I'm sure is yet to come. I hope I deal with it fine. (Don't think so.) I got to deal with life's true mysteries that come with all this. Maybe I'm not supposed to be truly happy but life will last, and the truth will be known in due time. I might fall on my face many, many more times but it's easier to learn from all my mistakes not truly forget about them. I hope life sees me in a good way (don't think so for all I've done and delt with.) I see life through more as an out of body experience some times. I shout for people to hear but no words come up of my mouth. we will see what the future truly holds for a person like me. :|.