The mistake

**note** this isn't real

What do you do when your all dark, alone and cold? When all your life has been drained of happiness and life. Do you run? Cry? Or possibly die?, this is my story of what happens when love and brightness has all disappeared from your life

My heart raced in my chest as I ran down the dark, wet and smelly ally. I could hear people shouting out my name behind me. All I owned now was the clothes on my back, my phone in my pocket and a few £20 notes in my other pocket. I was all alone because of one stupid mistake that I had made a couple of years ago, and what a stupid and avoidable mistake it was.

As I kept running down through what seemed like an endless ally, my foot splashed in a cold puddle causing me to trip over and graze my knee. I silently cursed to myself as I got back up and continued to run

While I kept running I kept thinking of what my life was before I made my mistake, I had a wonderful best friend called keena, a amazing boyfriend called Conner and an absolutely wonderful sister called jess.
"you could still have Conner" a voice somewhere inside my head said "after all he said he'll love you no matter what and he is partially to blame for you mistake".

I tried to tell the voice to shut up but in all honesty I didn't want it to shut up as it was keeping me company and stopping me from panicking

I eventually realised I couldn't run any more, I was too tired and weak. I found a small little cove in the alley where I could comfortably sit and sleep while not being found or disturbed

As I began to drift off I started to think of my mother and father and what they would say if they were still here. I felt one single tear roll down my cheek as I fell asleep.

 

Thanks qin, Nathan and Levi 

 

I awoke to the sounds of birds tweeting and an aeroplane flying above me, I sat there for awhile trying to stay happy but it soon dawned on me that I'd never be happy again

I sighed as I got up and stretched, I rubbed my sore neck and felt in my pocket for my phone, there were 4 texts and 30 missed phone calls. 2 of the texts were from Nathan a very close friend of mine,
"were ru?! xN" and "u shuldnt of run, nt ur fault xN",
the other 2 texts were from Conner
"Zoe I still love you, I'm sorry <3" and "Keep running, don't come back, there looking for you every where <3 I love you <3"

Ok so I guess I still had Conner in my life which felt amazing, but Nathan was obviously worried. Another silent tear ran down my cheek as I remembered all the good times I had with Conner

**MARCH 2nd 2009**

I looked at Conner from across the car and smiled at him, he was my everything and I never wanted to let him go, it was our 1year anniversary and he was taking me to a pub for our lunch,

As we got out of the car Conner grabbed me by the waist and pulled me close to him, he bent down to whisper in my ear "I'll always love you forever Zoe, no matter what we go through together I will stick by you" he moved away slightly and thats when the guns started firing, Conner pushed me to the side of the car "RUN!" he shouted at me and I did what he said and ran.

I shook my head violently trying to get the gunshot sounds out of my head and started to run again keeping to the shadows. All my life I feel like I've been running.

 

Thanks babe
Yh ur one of the main characters <3

 

Thanks Jodie 
Sorry about the stuff in cc ATM