Chapter One: Can you see it? Ella get your ass out to the goddamn bus! It was cold outside, yet again I forgot my jacket. I ran out to the bus in a hurry just barely catching it. I walked through the aisle ignoring the looks from everyone. I sat in my seat in the back alone as usual. Nobody knew my pain or what I go through. Everday is a struggle and nobody would ever notice. My hair was in my face covering my glasses while I scrolled through my music. I finally came across "In over my head by the fray" I played it. I then fell asleep I had a dream that I was dead again. I was woken up by a little sixth grader we were getting off the bus.
I grabbed my bookbag and pulled up my pants this was the beginning of another horrible day. I walked through the halls everyone looking at me like I was a dirty caged up animal. I opened my locker and stuffed my book bag in and grabbed my binder. I walked to class I hated first period it was Latin, A football player shoved me into a wall. I felt harrassed I'm a girl and a boy felt it was okay to press me up against a wall. I wanted to die my face was bleeding I took out an alchol swab and cleaned up my face then put a bandaid on. Halfway through my class I was called to the principals office. When I entered Mr. Dedalito told me to sit down and he said I did something I know I didn't do. He said I stole something from a teacher or something. He gave me all day detention it was stupid I went back and grabbed my binder. The detention monitor frowned as she knew I didn't do anything. I sat down and then she asked how I was and I could only say fine. I wasn't fine I was an outcast I was alone I was depressed I JUST WANTED TO END IT ALL!
Chapter Two: The Runaway My dad was deployed again so of course I was stuck with my mom and her boyfriend, yes she was cheating. I hated them they were out so I just went up to my room and took a nap. I dreamed that I was little again when my mom loved me and we were a family. I woke up to being kicked hard in the stomach it was none other then Drey my moms bastard boyfriend. He told me to get out of the damn house if I wasn't going to do anything to help even though I do everything. I was going to actually do it I was going to run away. I had a notebook filled with all the information I was doing it tonight. I was finally going to be free and fufil happy the thoughts had kept me alive all this time. I went and did the dishes, my mom drunk again was laying on the couch while Drey watched football with a beer. I went to bed but set an alarm for 1:30am, I was so excited.