Something mildly meaningful.

Heya, while I love to be a troll as much as the next person, I do like me some serious talks as well. I haven't really be on here a lot for a while but there were many small little things that I did learn moving forward since the last two three years since I left. While I would love to share some pics and make a super adorable and cute thread like crystal used to do back in the days, I am concerned about privacy and my digital footprints now more than ever.

first things first)
I joined the game back in 2015-16, I don't know but probably forums ninjas like Kefo senpai do. I was in my second year of college back then. Kind of a nerd whobhad moved to a new city. I was an honour student so I paid most of my college fee through scholarships.

Back then, I for some reason used to think that I am superior to others or maybe I was just scared to make new connections a lot. Thinking that maybe just fitting in the croud is worth it. That I don't need to stand out a lot. My personality somehow always makes me stand out as I am highly extroverted. I was doing CS majors and honestly I wasn't the best at it back then. I am Indian and in a population of 1.3 billion, you do need to be in the top 1-2% to be able to actually afford a good enough life style.

This is neither a sappy story nor do I feel any kind of an emotion while expressing this. I want to just make a point so keep reading.

While I wasn't making a lot of friends in the real life. I joined this game. In this little virtual world you could actually act like you're someone meaningful.

Just think about it, I had no idea about how to even pay taxes in real life while I considered myself a good enough trader while I traded random virtual items in a game, thinking that this is somehow a reflection of my potential subconsciously and being happy about it.

I used to take small petty wars in this mobile game seriously so did I take the forums very seriously. We had a line chat filled with fun enough people I guess.
While I had made a friend named Wednesday here. She even posted on my birthday with some bread and jam sandwich. Meant a lot to a person who didn't have more than 3 friends in real world. I made another friend named Flocc in the line group. While I actually only met these people in different sections of the game, I tricked myself into thinking that I am their friend and all these fake moral values I gained watching movies and anime should be applied here to solve their issue. Taking flocc's side I made Wednesday an enemy i guess (In my mind atleast).

We also used to pester a girl named Alisha14 or some thing, Alicia I guess, whatever. There was a running joke that she's 14 in 2017-18. She didn't really like it. While I thought she didn't mind it. She harboured feelings against those things we verbally said I got against her wrong side as well. Similar things did happen with Chill as well though honestly I don't remember.

Point is I used to be insecure and depressed and nothing was really happening in real life. So, all the drama in this virtual life made things bearable I guess. There was a false sense of 'I am important.'

While my undergrad degree was ending
I didn't really see myself getting a decently high paying job. I only had a limited amount of money left and honestly I really did want to kill myself. I didn't really have a family besides a big brother, so me killing myself wouldn't hurt anyone as I wasn't on very great terms with him either.

Nevertheless, I was a coward and couldn't really muster the courage to kill myself or maybe I was brave enough to live through my first world problems in a third world country.

I stated doing Masters with the cash I had left. Somehow, now I wasn't bad at it. I was doing fairly good in real life. I joined gym and started working out. Became the class president in my Post grad class(That's meaning less in the long run too), started putting in more effort in work and study, started taking swimming lessons, started reading books more like listening audio books, I made a lot of actual friends this time around (It was happening for the first time and was getting to my head). I left the game because it came in my way of doing everything I loved. I couldn't stop watching porn and jacking off a lot though (that's a bummer). I was now not an arse in the game but quite an arse in the real life. After a few broken friendships and getting friendzoned once,. I moved to a new city and started my internship as an SAP ABAP developer for 6 months. There I was in the good books of the seniors. While I have left that company after the internship period ended now I am working on full stack developer skills and knock knock covid is here. I did enjoy a lot in that new city and got into a kind of open relationship, it's more like now I am not the same person anymore. While I really haven't even achieved a fraction of what I want to in my life yet, but I have gotten out of that deep dark hell that I made for myself, here are a few points that I think are the key takeaways that help to turn your life around:-

1) Laugh more and enjoy, it's only one life and it can always be turned around.
2) Take care about other people's feelings, small gestures like thanks and sorry go a long way.
3) Do what is necessary, if you're not decapitated and forced to not do what's needed to be done or can be done now, you should do it now.
4) Be honest, there are 7 billion people in the world, somebody will be there who likes you for who you are.
5) Don't be an alcoholic, I mean I to get wasted once in a while in a birthday party but bottle isn't my way of getting stress relief (Jacking off is, just kidding)
6) Marijuana IS A GATEWAY DRUG. luckily I didn't get addicted even though I have smoked pot in last 2-3 years on multiple occasions, I know people who are fraction of the size they used to be and are practically useless now.
7) Read more books, every book changes you a lot.
8) Never stop believing in the possibility of a better future.
9) Don't waste time and find escape in silly mobile games and TV, that's very similar to drinking booze to skip a day of pain.
10) High focus on sexual desires drive people crazy.
11) No, your significant other doesn't care about your dick size( Technique matters though) but you being a dick can be a problem.
12) Be calm and nice and productive.
13) Anger is waste of life.
14) If your significant other is cheating just leave them silently, don't cause drama.
15) don't be overly cautious of your significant other. It's not like you being possessive will stop them from falling in love with someone else.
16) If you're who the woman needs ( You'll be the one always and forever). Kind of similar for guys.
17) And if someone does leave you, they aren't your meaning in life, you need your own meaning in life.
18) Rest there's a lot to say But I guess this much is enough.


Extra(Coz it's tedious to make too many posts):


@Kefo~
Hi, I didn't see this for like two years, hehe ily. I was nice to you I guess every now and then. But back then I was just pretentious I guess. I was nice to even people whom I didn't tak with much or who weren't even a friend really. But, any kindness you did recieve was because you deserved it. You're a nice person so I maybe I was nice as well. Just be yourself and love others. I don't really think that version of me needs any kind of love as it was a fake persona to begin with. But hey, if we do meet in real life, maybe we could be great friends.

The people I do mention when I pop up is more because they're kind and genuinely nice and less because I was their friend. I didn't have the capability to have a friend back then.

Anyways, to whoever it may concern.

There's more to life than an escape in a small game and a lot of virtual people. So, go and do what needs to be done and make some real friends. May you win against all the odds and become the most genuine and kindest version of yourself.( and you can become abso-bloody-lutely rich as well at the same time if you want to.)

Care to add any of your own experience and advice, add them below as well.