Krista turned to her side and quickly wiped away the tears staining her flushed cheeks, trying to shake memories of her past from her head, she buried her face into her pillow and tried to fall asleep. Thoughts of the nights events and her drunk boyfriends grunts and snores keeping her from her only place of comfort. "why me" she asked her self as she slowly rubbed her wrists that ached from what her boyfriend Joseph called "horsing around", at 6 foot 2 Joseph easily overpowered krista, and with his insatiable thirst for hard alcohol horsing around often got out of control. When krista tried to stop Joseph would ridicule her and claim she was being dramatic. Trying to stop her own pity party krista thought of the beautiful son she had been blessed with almost 5 years ago, Carter was such a fun boy, often into mischief but pretty quick to listen. Krista smiled to herself as she thought of the 3 times he had snuck out of his room to give her "one last goodnight kissy". Krista wondered how her baby had grown up so quickly and thought of the years they'd spent together, the colic fits as a baby, the first time carter smiled, his first step, how well he could write his letters, the thought of carters second birthday snuck into her head and she squeezed her bright blue eyes shut thinking of the night before that birthday, the first time joseph had struck her with a closed fist, Krista turned over to look at Joseph snoring away, oblivious to the thoughts going through her head about whether this relationship was the right thing after all....after almost four years shouldn't she know! Krista thought of calling her sister Kelly for advice but knew that she would be in bed with her boyfriend Ryan, krista had gone to school with Ryan, he was a year younger than her but a nice guy. He worked as a waiter at the local BBQ restaurant even though he was graduated from college. Krista felt a moment of jealousy but knew that he must have a bad side...they all did. Joseph stirred and pulled krista close to him, entangling their feet together. Krista felt disgusted that her body could betray her and ache for him like it did, even though her confusing thoughts still twisted through her head. Krista must have fallen asleep in his arms because she awoke to the alarm clock screeching in her ear telling her it was time for a new day. Krista rolled away from the warmth of josephs body and stretched, inhaling the fresh summer air into her lungs. She smiled and hopped out of bed, excited to get to work and see her patients at the hospital.