My name is Leenu, people know me as Lee. I have dark brown hair, brown eyes. Blah blah ok so I'm a girl and yeah I'm emo blah blah blah , ok so this is my story about my love life in 2011. I've done alot in the past, lifes been horrible I hate it, I always end up hurting those I love and as a punishment I hurt myself twice as hard, it's my way of making it equal. I hurt them, I hurt myself. I have a baby brother, he's great I love him. Everyone loves him, before he was born I was loved by my parents. And I didn't necessarily enjoy the attention, everyone watched what I did and cared way too much when honestly I didnt care that much about them. Now that my Brothers here my parents don't care as much anymore and I'm fine with that, who would actually want to care about a freak daughter? A girl who only wears dark colours.. A girl who cries when no ones looking.. A girl who doesn't appreciate anything. School was hell, I was hated for being myself . No one understood . No one did. Sure I had friends, I had plenty of them. And they hated seeing me sad but they never knew that to do other than telling me "it's gonna be ok". The don't know understand, they don't know how it feels. I didn't think anyone else in the world really understood me at all until the day I met .. [since I don't want to expose people without their permission I'm gonna make up a name], the one guy who understood everything, because he went through everything as well. My true love, Jayden Yes, I cut. Horrible? Not really.. It calms me down, when I'm mad I punch the wall.. It calms me down and I'm fine with hurting myself . But other aren't very ok with it.. Jayden made me stop. He made me promise and I cab never say no to him. But I still do break the promise sometimes.. The people that hate me, there are alot of them and I mean A LOT ! Heh, it's kinda funny how they hate me so much that they even tell me I should die . And they even give me ideas on how I should kill myself. I sometimes agree with them, life is meaningless. It hurts. It hurts so much. To have so many people hate you for no reason at all, I haven't done anything to them to make them hate me, they just hate me because I'm myself. Well whatever this story isn't about them.. It's about how my love life got messed up. -----
So I'm in love with my boyfriend, I love him so much and he means everything to me. Ok i don't wanna go on about how great he is because I might just end up writing about him instead of the other dude I was meant to write about. Basically this story starts the day I met one of my best friends, Charlie. Charlie is great.. No I don't think that's the right word for him.. He's EPICLY AWESOMAZING [yeah I just made that word up] Charlie is so sweet, he's so nice and he's so fun. He's shy at first but when you get to know him he's louder than a bulldozer, in a good way. He's funny. And always tries to make me happy and even though most of the time he doesn't understand anything that I'm talking about he always tries to say the right thing, and he always [ok most of the time..] ends up saying the right thing. It helps alot but I don't know why its never all I need.. The one thing that always makes me smile is Jayden. He is my everything. Charlie is just great. His words effect me so much. And his advise helps very much. If Charlie didn't give me the advise I wouldn't be able to go talk to my bf and be happy, so basically if it weren't for Charlie I wouldn't be able to do the one thing that makes me happy (being with my bf) Charlie is my best friend, and probably always will be. We talk alot and he helps me in any way he can. If Charlie was ever mad at me I probably wouldnt be happy for a long time. Not even my boyfriend could make me happy if I lost a brother like Charlie. It just goes to show that my friends mean alot to me, they've always been there for me when no one else has gave a crap about me. [hi Charlie, hope your liking the story so far]
I'll continue the story after charlie tells me what he thinks about it So I'm just waiting for him to say something
Awwh lol don't worry it was a good guess But at least you were right about Charlie being in the story
I love Charlie, I love Jayden I love Jayden like a princess would love her price charming, I love Charlie like he's a big fat chocolate chip cookie ! Jayden is my love and I will always love him, Charlie is my cookie like brother and I will also love him too.. I've always told Charlie about how much I love my bf and how great he is .. And Charlies always been ok with me talking about him, Then I started to kinda think that Charlie likes me more than a friend.. At first I'm like "No,Charlie is my bro! And nothing else.. He can't possibly like me.. Can he? I'm his Kobe and he's my fart head! Bro and sis! That's it! .. Right?" WELL I WAS WRONG The day Charlie told me he loved me was the night I cried myself to sleep, this isn't the first time one of my best friends has told me he/she loves me [I have bi, lesbian friends too and just so you all know I love them even though they are bi or les, because they are still really good friends!] I never know what to do, I couldn't lie to him and tell him I loved him back. I loved my bf and I knew that. So I told him the truth that I love jayden and that charlies like a brother to me and I'll always love him even though I won't be able to love him the way he wants me to. After that I felt horrible, I hate myself so much. I'm worthless. Everyone tells me I am. Everyone tells me that I'm a stupid little girl. So why did Charlie have to love me? He could do so much better and by not loving him back I didn't want to hurt him so I did the only thing I could do, I cried and cried and cried, hoping that this mess will wash away with the tears. But that won't ever happen.
Looool I'm just gonna keep writing I'm writing this story for Charlie And cuz he's like " write a story and put me in it!!" So Here you go Charlie ! A whole story about how I feel about you
Lol xD Sowwie this story is all about Charlie, after this one I might write another one n I'll put you in it
1. I love how u put our nicknames in here lmao 2. Im nothing worth crying over 3. Of course I'll always be here for u