Soooo my name is Portia, hello When I first started pimd it was two/three years ago.. When I first discovered it I only thought of it as a game and that everything was just a joke so I made up a persona, I made up Illeanna Spencer... Lied about my age, my identity and my past life... And the lie just kept on going.. I met new people, cool, amazing, funny people... One in particular his name was Tyler, I kinda fell in love with him at the time I said I was 16 turning 17 but in reality I was pretty young he said he was about 18 he made me smile and he made me cry, at one point I had to leave pimd for half a year because I got blacked out drunk and ended up losing my phone.. I tried all I could to come on and talk to him but it wasn't enough, he ended up moving on I ended up broken hearted and still in love. Then when I came back I ended up in Forgotten Realm, made lots of family there like Anna, Yumi, John, Em's, Mulan, Dave, and then some... I loved that place but the one tiny flaw was Tyler he was in that club we got into it one night he called me a bitch and I farmed him .-. I was banned and lots of people turned their backs on me except John, Anna, and Yumi. Yumi is my beautiful use to be twinny (not sure if its the same now) Anna was my beautiful and amazing best friend and ex (now we hardly talk) John handsome funny smart and very special to me (we also don't talk now)... Lots of shit happened between us four but mehhh anywayyyys moving on..... I ended up getting into an argument with Anna because she got with Tyler behind my back, Me and yum I got into it because of a lot of shit but I still love her.... After about two years of flirting and talking me and John finally ended up together I was so in love with him and still am he made me feel special and gave me a reason to be happy... But I was still Illeanna I never told anyone the truth because I was scared, how do you just tell people you love that you aren't who they think you are with out being scared? A few people in our club didn't think I was who I was and automatically the first person I thought about was john.. I texted him and brought up the conversation, I told him everything even though I was scared of losing him... Because I knew it wouldn't be the same and he said to me in his cute caring loving voice and said to me "Baby.. I fell in love with you baby not your looks no matter what you look like I will never leave you... I love you so much" And of course me being the normal teenage girl I am I got so happy I gave him everything I was keeping from everyone else I let him into my heart... But not long after I can feel things changing and I try everything I can to prevent what I already knew what was gonna happen... He got distant, things changed, I felt alone again and then finally one night I just asked him... "Do you love me?" And he replies quickly "I don't know how I feel anymore Tia." We ended up talking on the phone I asked him questions and what he said broke my heart so much but honestly everything that on wasn't his fault it was mine, I'm the one that fucked him over, I'm the one that lied, I'm the one with the temper that most likely pushed him away, and I'm the one that couldn't trust him or drop my insecurities. He is now happy with someone so beautiful, skinny, and all over amazing. It hurts and I doubt it will get better.. But moral of the story is don't get fantasy and reality mixed up... Stay in reality don't lose yourself in pimd no matter what because things will never be how you see them.. I stopped caring after John, you won't catch me saying "I love you " on pimd to any man ever again. ~p.s. boredom kills