"What do you mean?" he croaked. I avoided his gaze,refusing to look into those deep ocean blue eyes. Tears filled my eyes and i couldnt let him see through me. The truth must be kept secret, even if it means losing him. "Tell me ,why are you doing this to me? to us?" he asked in a low painful voice. I took a deep breath as i braced myself for the worst. Knowing the pain would damage my heart completely, i had to do it. "Because...I don't love you anymore." His expression was unbearable. I tried so hard not to tremble. For a whole minute, we said nothing. My black hair was flying everywhere and the smell of salt water was giving me a headache rather than comfort. Ethan, my one and only love, I'm so sorry but i have no choice. "Is it true?... LOOK AT ME KATE!" he yelled, outraged by my sudden confession. I held back those tears and looked at him in the eyes with nothing but coldness,hopefully convincing enough for him to believe my lies. "It is...I feel nothing towards you and i hope you would feel the same way " I hissed,trying to sound terrifying. His water filled eyes tore away from mine and watched the sun sinking over the horizon. His hands were shaking and his lips were trembling. Without him looking, tears escaped from my eyes but i quickly wiped them away. My knees were weakening and my chest felt painful. He approached me closer and without warning, cupped my face and softly kissed my lips. As much as i want to melt in his arms, i remained firm. He parted and looked me in the eyes. "If you tell me that kiss didnt affect you at all, I'll leave...with all my might, i'll disappear from your sight" he said, sounding breathless. I wanted to yell at him, he's making it so much harder than it is. " The kiss meant nothing to me...and it never will" I lied. He looked at me in disbelief. With one last painful look, he left. As much as i wanted to chase after him, to cling on him and tell him the opposite of everything i just said, i couldnt. " I will always love you Ethan" I whispered and finally broke into tears. ______________________________ This is my first time writing this Sorry it sucked~ Comments are appriciated. Ignore my bad grammar and spelling, english is not my first language. or , its your choice?
Its been 2 months since Ethan disappeared from my life. I mean, literally disappeared. After that day, he moved away. I didnt know where he could possibly go but i was both relieved and upset when he left. It took me awhile to adjust without him. I used to do everything with him but not anymore. I kept crying at night and began blocking out people. I knew it was wrong of me but i just couldnt be happy yet. My heart wasn't healed so i didnt want to take the risk. Dreams kept coming everynight and all of them were about him.My heart kept telling me its over but I just couldnt get that fact out of my head yet. "Kate Wesley! Come down here! Breakfast is ready!" Mom yelled from downstairs. I groggily got out of bed and walked downstairs. The smell of eggs and pancakes filled the kitchen, which means, mom is furious. I stepped in the kitchen and saw my mom furiously washing the dishes. "Jake Arthur Wesley...disgrace...gonna get that useless thing...burn it into ashes " She muttered. Jake is my 16 year old brother. He's 2 years younger than me. Playing the guitar was his favorite thing to do. Throughout breakfast, he kept silent and ate his food. I looked at him then back at mom. "Whats wrong mom?" I asked reluctantly. "Your Brother! he...he failed all his subjects! Why he!" She said furiously. I took a plate and helped myself. Jake was never a smart kid but he was smart enough to pass his subjects. I guess he was just lazy to put in extra effort. We both look a bit similar with eachother. Black hair,green eyes and fair skin but he had freckles. Mom has freckles and she has the greenest eyes ever. My Dad had blond hair and brown eyes. I have another sister named Taylor and she resembled my dad more so people didnt believe her when they found out she was related to us. She was at college in Washington,DC. We lived in a small town called Walbourne, South Carolina. It takes a few hours to reach there by car but it takes about an hour an a half by plane. Walbourne isn't famous but this town has its history. It was the first day of summer and i plan to stay indoors and read books. I know its lame but i have a thing for romance novels which include vampires. Half of my bookshelves have books about vampires,immortals,casters and all that fiction stuff. "Why can't you be like your sister Kate?! She's an honour student!" She continued on,tearing me away from my thoughts. " I dont want to be someone who keeps to herself, pretending that the world is over just because she dumped someone who she really loved and feels extremely guilty about it!" He bellowed. My eyes grew wider and my blood was boiling. He paused for a moment,reliazing what he'd done and quickly turned guilty. Tears were brimming in my eyes. "Katie...I'm so sorr-" he began. Without listening to the rest of his words, i stood up and stormed off to my room. Just before i slammed the door, mom went ballistic. I didnt care, he deserved it! He doesnt know how painful it really felt. No one understands me except...Ethan. ______________________________ It was pretty boring right? I have to give the introduction eventually!
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