I never went through the Santa isn't real stage as my parents never told me he wasn't. So I believe there's a fat man riding reindeers with a BIG ASS bag of gifts and drops them down chimneys even though I clearly see my mother at the store buying what I want..
Let's just say I'm neutral, I won't say I believe in him but I won't say he doesn't exist. Just because you don't see it doesn't mean it isn't there. But just because you think that doesn't mean it is there.