Hey guys. I'm mush. Some people know me, most don't. I came her because I'm an alcoholic. Most people I know don't take me seriously whem I say that, which is why I have come here. I don't expect a reply. This is mainly a vent. Right at this minute, I'm knelt over the toilet, making myself vomit just so I don't annoy my wife with the tossing and turning of me trying to get to sleep. I don't expect any sympathy. I know it's all self inflicted. I do it because I am happier. Easier to talk to. I can actually have a conversation with someone when I'm drunk. I jave things to talk about. When I'm sober, i never know what to say. I drink every night. Most nights I hide it from my wife. In my eyes, I'm worthless. But I want to stop. I just don't know how. I want to be able to have a conversation with someone without having to have drinks first. I don't even know where I'm going with this. I'm just writing as I speak. Comment, don't comment. I don't care. I have finally announced that I have a problem. Now to being up the courage to tell my family. One step at a time Mush. One.step.at.a.time...
Well I'll comment even if you don't care as you said, despite the fact that I was under the impression you were asking for advice even though you never said it directly. Do you want to stop drinking or not? If you do you should get professional help and with a lot of effort you'll make it. If you don't want to quit the question is, do you have to stop drinking or not? The answer to that is quite clear because drinking is unhealthy; If you don't give a cake about your health then perhaps you might want to stop because of your loved ones. You have to make yourself believe that you don't need alcohol to talk to people, don't stress about it and you'll be fine.