She shifted in her chair getting her camera up starting the video. "Hey Guys! It's Smile here!" She had a big smile on her face then it faltered. "That's not me right now, big smiling me is what you Wanna see right? Well I can't I can't keep acting like it's all okay. Everyone is telling me to be happy and positive and it will get better if I stay happy. It won't. It makes you feel confused on who you are and you believe that fake smile. If you need to be sad then be sad you cannot help how you feel." She teared up trying to hold the tears back, but failed as they fell down her pale face. "You see the smile on the camera but after it goes off here it is my dad crying wreck self. It hurts a lot but it's bull crap if someone says to stay happy. You can't being happy doesn't always help being sad sometimes is okay because you can't help it. YOU'RE HUMAN YOU NEED TO CRY. I can't take it when someone treats another human less of them. It's not fair what's the point? You have a lot going on too. GET HELP TELL SOMEONE CRY AND JUST CRY LET IT OUT. I'm sorry guys I might end this video here. I love you guys." She ended the video posted it deleted her social media and stopped and cried all night. Her fans scared for how she is. But she's getting better. It's been months. She hasn't gotten better. She's worse. She can't stop the tears. She's not pretending. "This is how it is Yummi. It's always gonna be like this." She said to herself.