Don't know what to call this but it's pretty long. its about

Well, hello to all the people that have taken the time to look at this. I decided to tell my life story .-. Just felt like doing so .__. Anyways...

As far as I can remember all the back is when I was 4 years old. I was pretty happy back then .-. I had absolutely no clue that I was a foster kid with my only brother at the time. .__. Yes, I am a foster kid, so what of it? .-. It was only my brother, my mother and I living in a small town called Wetaskiwin. (pronounced Wet-ask-ih-win) I was happy as I could be and never have I wondered about not having a father at all. But, still, I was happy with my friends and my brother. That's all it took, right? Right! Lol.

Anyways, at the time, I was attending a school called Norwood Elementary School. It was probabaly my favorite school, though I'm not sure why. The teachers there were pretty cool. I still remember such names as my first grade teacher: Ms Kokkott (I think thats how its spelled .-.(pronounced Koh-kott)) plus the principal too. For some reason, I was very affectionate towards the principal named Mr. Van Diest. That reason was simple, I looked upon him as my father .__. But he treated me as any other kid who got in trouble and disciplined me .__. As always, at the end of each day, before my mother pulled up in her blue van, I would always find Mr. Van Diest and given him an innocent hug and he'd give me a hug back. I was so happy.

School was not far off from my house, just a block or two away. I'd always go outside with my friends when my brother and I got home. When it rained, my brother and I always played the N64, be it 007 Goldeneye or Donkey Kong Country lol. Our friend, Shurin, would sometimes come over since she (thats right, she. Be jealous .-.) lived right next door in the exact same blue house as we did. We'd always have fun together whether it'd be outside, inside or on the N64. We didn't have a care in the world. Strange as it seems, Shurin is the only friend I can remember .-. Anyways, years passed as we grew up until we were around seven. Well, I was seven anyways.

That was when my family split up ;~; my brother went to a family I knew nothing about, my mom went off somewhere and I went to another family as well. Except this family had my real younger brother .-. That family also consisted if other brothers and sisters too. I will name them all in order from youngest to oldest: A.J. Seth Edward Louis, Mary Yellowbird, Nolan Earl Chet Rabbit, Tiffany Ann Lee Okeynan, Me, and then Frankie Jay Ermineskin. We were all Aboriginals. Or as I like it better, Natives. Now, me and Frankie always got along better than anyone else. He was like my other foster brother (forgot to mention his name was Tyrell Green). He was older than I was just like Tyrell was. So I guess it was only natutal that I look up to him. Now, this family had something that my other family did not, a father. I guess every now and then, I would get in trouble due to me wanting attention from him .-. I guess I did love him and he loved me back, but I couldn't tell at the time. But to me, he would never be on the same level as Frankie. I always followed Frankie wherever and wanted to be in his footsteps. I loved him so ,__, more than my real brother too .-.

The best part i loved about this family is that they always went camping somewhere I loved camping as much as I loved Frankie. It was kinda like exploring the world in a small way. Kinda like an Adventure *insert adventure music*
I guess that started out why I love to climb tree's so much. Anyways, seven years later, I was taken away once more .-.

This time I ended up in Edmonton, the capital of Alberta. Just kidding. Not yet. I actually ended up in Red Deer. It was fun I guess. But what was not fun was the day I was taken away was the day it was Tiffany's birthday. Quite sad actually, but I made friends and whatnot. So I did have fun. But 2-3 maybe even 4 months later and 3 days before my birthday, I finally moved to Edmonton.

More people I have made friends with and less I cared. But my bond with families started growing less. It was 3-4 years I stayed in hell. I did not like that place at all. I've seen all my friends come and go before my eyes. That was also the place I had my vision dream thingy. Or maybe it was a coincidence.

Anyways, the day after I had my dream, one of my friends died suddenly. It was sad for me. I was comforted but I didn't really care. To me, they were another person in my life that had come and go. Yes, I started to become heartless. I took to much pain anyways. Months later, my bond with Frankie started weakening. Again. Yes, I'm leaving details out. This is kinda like a summary.

I've had to endure so much pain and hate towards me. But some true friends always were by my side never criticizing me for who I was. I cared for them as well. I didn't want to lose anyone else. But as always, they came and went.

After the 3-4 years passed, I was moved to a small town called Stony Plain. And yet, I stopped care altogether. More pain, more hate, more people in and out of my life. And I'm not emo or goth either .-. (not to be stereotyping .-. Sorry) Right then and there in Stony Plain, I felt I had enough. I just gave up on everything. I stopped hoping that things will get better. But, to be honest, I had fun. I learned about horses. How to take care of them, how to ride and how to saddle up .__.

After 2-3 years, I moved back home. My real family on my birthday. It was only me, my real mother and my real sister. Younger sister. At that point, I didn't care anymore seeing as how I was going to be moved again anyways. My mother tried her best to care for me as best she could. And I'm grateful. But the best thing that happened there was I found my real father. He was living elsewhere though. By the way, my mother lives in Hobbema. It's a ghetto place.

As promised, I was moved shortly after. It was February this year that I moved. Moved with my current roommate who is Satanist. I stopped believing in religion when I was in E-Town. Yupp. Thats what most of us Albertan's call Edmonton.

So, new schools, new families, new friends have changed me greatly. I do not trust a single person due tp the fact that I have been hurt emotionally, mentally and physically. I have taken so much hate as well. But I no longer care as long as people are giving me attention. Truth is, I no longer have friends anymore. They've moved on. And all my families are quite dead to me now. They're not literally dead. They're doing quite fine without me. My mother from when I was 4-7 years old? I learned she went to the Bahamas for unknown reasons. I can never understand why she left me and Tyrell. As for Tyrell, he disappoints me with drugs and alcohol. But we still look out for each other now. Only person I can trust (I think). My bond with Frankie? It's been severed and I secretly hate him. But we still make contact. We are no longer brother's was his decision. So I have never had anyone to look up to for four years.

But not all things are negative. I have learned many, many things. Like, nobody should be left alone or judged. I defend those people and keep their spirits up. Those are now the only people I care about. Plus I care about few people who care about me.

If you so much as judge someone based on personality, looks or anything else, let me ask you. Have you ever judged a book by its cover??

If not, then you are even lower than anything else judging someone you wouldn't judge a book.

Yes, I am a hypocrite, but I always try and keep myself in check.
I am optimistic though, always smiling when someone makes fun of me or hurts me. I never fight back. I have learned to accept people as they are.

I try to comfort those who are having bad days. Their bad days are nothing compared to mine now.

I currently own my own house with my roommate. We are starving most of the time. We are incredibly poor. He's a stoner and I hate that. I have no friends at school at all. No one dares to talk to me. Hell, I'm lonely 24/7.

Thats why I comfort people. I don't want people being unhappy. It just reflects my own pain.

This is the first time I have ever shared to a major number of people.

I may be looking for attention or sympathy, but I wanted this off my chest.

I don't ever want to see anybody lonely or depressed. I want to be the one person everyone can look up to. And the one person I can be there for, whether it be in the same town or across the world.

Since I have left out many details, feel free to pm me what you want to know and I will answer best I can.

By the way, I am government funded and and all ties to family are cut off.

I'm afraid of people ,__,
Just saying, you know??

Thank you for taking the time to read this. I'd be more than happy to hear what people have to say.

Ps. Optimism is stupid .-. But its better than being pessimistic right? In my case anyways. Lol

Amakataka Mamowey Atosketan 

Written and copied and pasted today.

 

Is it??? 0.0 my bad

Ummm I don't mind being silenced then. I did break ToU right? So I will take it like a man! Lol I'm serious 

 

I'm surprised as well .-.

 

My uncle is an Elder 

 

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Not really, no

 

They're bigger in population lol. But not in size though 

 

Is it?  didn't seem that big to me. It's a great place to parkour though