Okay first lets get this straight, I don't care what anyone has to say about me, so keep that in mind if you comment negative. Ill most likely ignore you. This is a gay rant. My first kiss was a girl. It was when I was really little. I didn't know what she was doing, I was innocent. When I was in 3rd grade, I kissed another girl. Ever since that first kiss, I've had struggles, trying to contain my sexuality. Wishing, hoping, that I was straight. I dated guys, but only to try to deceive my self. Sometimes I really want to be straight... Or at least 'bi'. Here comes the rant part of my post. So I dated this girl for 2 years. We broke up, because I felt awkward around my mom. My mom always asks these weird questions, like "so.. Do y'all kiss..? You hold her hand.. In public?" It's been like this ever since she found out I liked girls. Though I did tell her I was bi she told me she thought I was confused.. Not realizing I've been liking girls since I was really little. So.. After that break up.. I wanted my mom to stop asking about me and other girls. So I started talking to this guy. I always told my friends (who knew I liked girls only) that I will date guy.. IF -He dances (better then me) -Has a job and car -
I have a question. Why do your 'conditions' only apply to guys and not girls? Why would you only date guys if they have a job, car, etc. But not a girl? Why does it only apply to guys?
Don't use the and symbol. You're a straight gay guy? I've seen it all. It's hard to talk about, especially online. You've got guts, kid. It's admirable.
-and dress good. Long story short, I met a guy who met my standards. Now I can't accept him, I keep trying to be someone I'm not because my dad is very religious. But sometimes I feel like I actually like this guy. I don't know why I can't ever accept guys, this isn't the first time. I feel so guilty sometimes, like I'm leading him on. I don't know what I want, or who I am, and it's killing me. Sometimes I feel bi, but most times I find myself looking at girls more then guys, it's so hard hiding this from my dad (my mom knows I like girls) WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME.
Because I like to be in control. I'd be the man in the relationship, I love working and buying stuff for girls. Idk why. It's weird because when guys like me they always tell me they like how guy-ish I am.
If I date a guy, I want him to be in control, Basically, I want someone who's gonna put me in my place. But with a girl, I like to be in charge. Idk. I'm confusing.
Hmmmm..... Okay wait. I'm confused. Lol. Okay.... So... How would you be in control if the guy you dated had a nice car, nice job, etc.? I mean, it's like, you'd want a guy with decent amount of $$. Right? I mean, you'd obviously not be in it for the $$, but the $$ is preferred to live a good and happy life. But it seems like the guy would be more in control if he fit those standards. Imo
I'm not confused with girls, I'm confused with guys. It's like how most people who say they are bi-curious, they usually mean they are curious to date a girl. I, on the other hand, am curious to date a guy.
I feel ya. I was confused once too. -Immortals-Ireland- is my ex. We broke up, and now I'm with Mayra Mayra-ight Hand. Been together for years.
Oh... if only I could show you the pm's Captain-Jack-Sparrow has sent me about what he wants to do to me... ? rawr