Colour My World~

Hey guys, this isn't a story~ but if you want to read this, carry on.  I just feel inspired at the moment and this is what I feel at the moment. ,_,

ㅡEliManson 
PS. Random title 
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I look into your brown glistening eyes as you tell me you love me. I can't believe it. I can't take the pain that's bugging me. My heart says it's true, yet my mind refuses to think that it is true. What is real... what is unreal?

I walk away not uttering a single word. "I love you," is what I wanted to say. But I can't say anything. I refuse to say so. I refuse to feel the excruciating pain of heartbreak. I had enough of it. I don't need another additional feeling of negativity.

Days pass by so quick. And here I am now, facing God with a million questions, a million requests.

Does he really love me?
Is he the one?
God, could you give me a sign?
I love him, does he really love me too?
What am I gonna do?
Please give me a sign if he really loves me. Please.

Those are just some. My head is full of you. Y-O-U. And no one else. I want you, I need you. I love you so dearly, heart, body, mind and soul.

Do you know why I don't believe you? The fact that you said you love me even if you still have a girlfriend. A girlfriend you've been with for FOUR years. Would you just waste that four years of love on a girl that is not anyone's liking? A girl who brings darkness on her shoulders, a girl who doesn't know how to not fake a smile when she's hurting inside. Would you want to give up your life for a girl like herㅡ for a girl like... me?

You say, "What's the point of being together if one love is absent in a relationship?" but do you know that I can't help thinking that it's all a lie? You say, "I love you. And that's all that matters. I don't love two girls at the same time. Do you think I still love her when I feel that I love you...?" I want it to be REAL.

But why does my mind keep saying that it's all a LIE.

Please, don't try to trick me in one of your games, how I wish you would just realise that I'm not a girl that's fit for heartbreak. Because I break down. A lot. I'm sensitive. I hurt easily. I get depress. And I want to die. Would you want to be the reason for a death of a young girl who had dreams so big... who had a chance in the world?

I just hope you would know how much I love you and that's what I really feel. But I can't really help thinking that all of your sweet talks are just mere lies.

I fall into a deep pit of misery and do you think I could climb up back again feeling strong and faking a smile? No. I'd be dead. Away from the cruel world. Away from heartbreaks.

Choose.
The girl you've loved for four years or the girl that would be so unfit for you but can love you as how much you want to?

Choose wisely.
I'm not gonna be there the second time around.

The only choice if you choose the girl you've love for four years, is you and I to be... strangers.

Don't get me wrong, I don't want to break the relationship of you both. So all I want you to know is that... please, stop making me feel pain. Stop saying you love me when you're also saying that to her.

Stop. Just STOP.

You make me weak on my knees, you make me smile. You light up my life. You're everything that I need to live a colourful world. But I want you to stop. Stop making me feel guilty.

And... You know...?
Please just go before you hurt me more. Leave me like this, happy but stupid. Don't leave me hopelessly in love with you and a broken heart. Set me free if you can't set yourself free from her.

I love you... I don't want to say how much. I don't want to compare my love. All I know is I love you. I LOVE YOU.

 

 Angela. H-hi...

 

Hahaha~  Thank you. x

 

Hahaha! Angela 

 

 Nooooot really.
Gee you guys~ thanks for the forum art 

 

I'm doing the guy's POV too

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I met you in an unexpected time, I fell in love with you in an impossible moment. Your personality captures all of me. I love you. I really do.

I stand here looking straight in your beautiful light brown eyes. "I love you." I say sincerely, truly. Because that is what I feel. And I never go back on my words. I love you.

But then you walk away, taking my heart and breaking it into pieces. I understand why. I definitely do. But why does it hurt so much?

I feel tears streaming down my cheeks. My life seems colourless now. Without you beside me, how can I live?

I met you, we became friends, I fell in love with you, and I know you did too. But it ended with a broken heart.

I already told you... I already told you that my girlfriend and I are not doing well. We're on the urge of breaking up. I LOVED her, she LOVES me. Can't you see the difference? Our relationship is on and off, my life is now dedicated to you.

Tell me, how can I stop loving you when you're mostly all that I think of ever since we met?

The four years will be a waste, but I am willing to waste it for a girl that I deeply loveㅡ for a girl like you. I don't love another girl when I love a girl. I'm not like the rest. And I never will be like the rest.

Stop thinking what I said are all lies, because they aren't. I love you. I can say it every second of forever. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, not with her. I want you, I need you. I love you so much! Heart, body, mind and soul. I want to continue my journey to Ithaca with you. You complete me.

I promise you, I'll wait until you're ready. If you think I'm playing tricks on you, then wait... I can wait too. Give me time to move on. But all I want you to know is that I LOVE YOU. Even God doesn't know how much. I love without limits. I will love you just as how much you want me to.

I don't want to hurt you. I want to protect you! I don't want to keep you away, I want to keep you beside me. Forever is not enough for me to say I love you. I need more than forever to show you how much I really do.

I'd do anything for you. I'd sacrifice everything I have to be with you. Will you willing to come with me?

I choose you. I don't want anybody else. I need you. I know I'm saying this again and again, but I don't know what else to say.

Please understand. I will let myself free from her, and I will find my way back to you again. I will hold you in my arms, and I will never let go.

I love you so much.
I love you too much, that I don't know what to do without you.

I love you...

 

 I don't get why you love it. 

 

Awww. Dem  I love you too.

Thanks Ang :'3