Bullied People 

My story is not as big as others' when it comes to bullying but I have been bullied in my opinion. My friends and PimD family tell me I do not appear to be the bullied type but it has happened.

It happened when I was in school,started in elementary. We all know how immature kids can be, they take some things too seriously and how they treat things psychologically still debeloping.

Well, as silly as it seems a simple sneeze started it all. As I said children are immature. I sneezed on my desk and buggers scattered on it, I cleaned it with my hand because I was too lazy to stand up to get a paper towel to clean it up. I had a cold, i was not able to control it. My entire class saw the event and harassed me for it. I was known as Disease Boy from then to until I moved on to middle school. Again, it was only serious to me then, I was harassed verbally by my entire class and they made sure I make no friends. And so I became a loner as a product of my peers. Amazing how children take things. From that point until High School no one wanted to become my friend. Amazing how sometimes you get to have a restart. If you are wondering people shunned me in junior high school too, verbal harassment.

I in real life am very bad at socialization because of this, I had no people who would let me socialize with them.

I believe now , 10 years later, that I have grown from that verbal bullying and shun. I used to be very gullible. And my dad at that time told me to go to college and get good grades, that way colleges would pay for me to go.

So, instead of only being verbally bullied by my peers, I studied and shot for good grades, I eventually believed in my dad's words. The stupid line "They will work for you one day". I was gullible so I had faith in that, and as I got A's and my forner classmates were all flunking in school, I actually believed it to me true.

By the time of high school I nearly saw no more of my classmates from elementary and no longer had that drive against my peers, instead I just wanted a good job to be live happy for the rest of my life. So I studied etc etc I am in college now at a private school. They are paying 96% of my tuition and room and boarding.

Another confession is that from my peers and observations of history that I learned to hate people. It is individuals that I do not hate. Society is corrupt, ignorant, repetative, and foolish. I was a pessimist and saw dark side of things. It was until a friend in Junior year tried to cheer me up. She worked on making me not hate people for a while then in the end she made me cookies for becoming less pessimistic.

And next comes a little motivation, If you are being bullied, have confidence, it does not last forever unless you get out of the dark and reach out for help or accept help reached out from other people. Confidence will make you feel better and perform better. Going into an exam or sport try out or game in general with confidence will improve your chances of doing well greatly (as long as you have experience in the material). That is where my confidence here in the game comes from, that is where my overconfident me on this game comes from.
I guess what here I am saying in the end is for all of you who are being bullied or have been bullied, there is hope, you can still be successful. Find help or let help find you. You control your fate and it can get better.
Inspired by all the threads about bullying that I have read

 

developing* (secomd paragraph)

 

second*  i fail

 

Thanks Prince.

 

Thank you Michelle  I just wanted to pour it all out. I rarely come out about this. My parents dont even know

 

 It was awkward and I admit clever

 

I am a passivist Angelina

 

pacivist*

 

I am wondering how often my situation of being motivated like that happens....

 

Thanks Russia