Bipolar- Suffering it

So I had found out I am bipolar and I am amazed that I acctually am. Im upset at myself now and I am getting made fun of it. I have been getting bullied not just by words but with hands.  I went out on my best friend, now I lost her, and I don't know what to do anymore. I'm also upset at myself for living. I go off on a lot of people and I can't control it. I try to, but I can't. What an I supposed to do? 

 

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I've transferred schools quite a few times, and of I tell them, they don't care they'll still do it

 

About a half hour ago i asked my step dad something, he said no so I started screaming and yelling at him and I ran to my room crying.

 

I see a counselor, i am in special classes, and no matter how many accelerated classes I am in, they still hate ne

 

I guess it doesn't matter anymore

 

I don't know. I should just never talk again

 

I know, I go to bed at extremely early at about 19:00 or 18:00 

 

I try to talk to Lexi (my best friend) but she just rolls her eyes

 

God i am sick of saying it, no one likes me!