I waste all of my time trying, I waste all of my energy crying, I waste all of my self caring, yet nobody seems to be sparing. I don't want to be this way anymore, what do I need to waste everything for? sometimes i wish I didn't have a heart, then it would be eaiser to fall apart. sometimes i feel broken and you don't have a clue. I stand here frozen, not knowing what to do. I lay here speechless with tears in my eyes and a hole in my heart, cuz I didn't know we'd said goodbye. I spend all of my time hoping I spend all of my time coping, I spend all of myself lying, yet nobody seems to know I'm dying. I can't take this much longer, thought things like this were supposed to make me stronger. Don't know how much more I can take, cuz every smile i smile is fake. and when i feel like crying, it's cuz I don't know how to smile. nothing can make me laugh, haven't done that in a while. can't put myself back together, I've been broken for so long. I want to be happy again, but it all feels so wrong. it just doesn't feel fair, I'm wasting my everything for you not to care. you go about your life, that's fine, but stay the hell out of mine. it's impossible for me to hate you, even after all you put me through. I know you'll never care about me, I've opened my eyes and it hurts to see. So i guess this is it, the end of you and I, any friendship we ever had can no longer exist. it's time for me to abandon ship, and I know I need to cease to persist. from so close to so far apart, I guess we've come full circle now. you'll forget about me and I'll move on, I'll be alright, though I don't know when or how.