One day when the dont shine and everyone's in pain, you'll know how I feel everyday. But when that one day comes ill still be the only one who understands, who realizes what's happening. Why? Cause everyday it's the same for me, I wake up, I get dressed, I grab my headphones, and phone, I sit down outside on my porch and watches as the days go by, as the "innocent" people live what they call life. I sit,listen, and look around at each and everyone of you, I watch as you go through your day and enjoy it. You all are free, you all aren't trapped inside like me. I'm trapped inside with my feelings and thoughts, but those aren't the things killing me slowly.......it's her, she's the center of all it she's the reason my days are always dark and gloomy. You don't know my story you don't know my pain, but the sad thing is....you don't care to know....so I won't tell. Everyday and every long night I ask myself ha I even ask God "Why am I still here? Why am I living what you call life?" As if he hears me, but yet I'm still here...trapped....alone without an answer. But one day when the sun isn't shining, when the clouds are at it's darkest, and the temperature and wind is at it's coldest....I will be free, I will but gone from this forsaken world . Free from all the hurt and pain this life has caused me. And the sad part is no one will notice, no one will care. I will just be another cloud in the sky no one notices. But ill be happy cause I'm free from this world, this life. I know your thinking I'm the sad one, I'm the crazy one I'm the hurt one, but honestly; truly you all are and I'm free. Ꭷne Ꭰay