Life brings us tears, smiles, and memories; the tears dry, the smiles fade, but the memories last forever. Even if they might be painful to remember, even when they are the memories that caused my life to fall apart. Kaylub Storm, a boy my age, who has been my closet friend since kindergarten, who's big, charming hazel eyes has haunted me for months, who's chalky russet colored hair, looking so soft, it had me yearning to run my fingers through it, had the biggest heart in the world, had gone missing. That was when I had thought my life couldn't get any worse, that is until I realized that so many simple everyday things reminded me he was gone. He was the one that kept my feet on the ground, and now I was just floating around dead to the world, and to everyone. But of course I still had my family, and friends, but none of them seemed to matter as much as Kaylub. It was really hard sometimes, but I gave my best effort to talk, and seem interested in any recent events. But what was the point really, it would bring Kaylub back any soon, no matter what I acted like, bit I didn't want anyone to worry about me, or try talking to me about it. The last thing I wanted was to talk about what I was feeling. "Earth to Vanessa." A voice called out bring me out of my thoughts, and I looked up to see my friend Danielle. "What?" I wondered in a daze from my previous thoughts. "I said, did you hear about the wolf attack?" She asked looking slight concerned. Danielle and I has always been friends, I have thought as her closer to a sister then any other person I have ever known. It was like she knew me better then I knew myself sometimes. I shook my head, not really interested. "What happened?" I made myself ask. "Mr. Miller was out empting his garbage, and a huge wolf came out, growling, blood all over it's muzzle." My other friend Lesley said with an animated smile, totally unaware of my disinterest. Lesley is a sweet girl, and I had to admit I would trust her with anything, the only thing about Lesley is her overly excited imagination. Brady sitting across from Lesley snorted. "Yeah, I'm sure." He said rolling his eyes. "No seriously Brady, I swear I saw one when I woke up this morning." Ryan said seriously. Ryan was my brother, he was the one friends with Brady more so then me. I never really was close to him, he had always been tempered, and mean in my point of view, he was never mean to any of us, but to everyone else he was the school bully. Brady rolled his eyes, but then turned to Patrick who was sitting right beside me. "What do you think Pat?" He asked calmly. Patrick shrugged. "I don't really care." He said not even trying to hid his misery, which I wouldn't either except the thought of how Kaylub would have wanted me to move on, and not dwell over him. Everyone was now watching Patrick in sadness, and worry. We have all been really close for a long time so it was hard to see each other upset like this. At first before we had all became friends it was only Ryan and me, just trying to survive school by our selves. Patrick and Kaylub came next, around the end of the year, and we became great friends. Lesley came next, along with all the others including Darrell. Darrell had really tied us together when we had met. He had invited all of us to one of his parties in third grade, and we all had probably the best time in our lives. It was hard sometimes to think about the past, it reminded me that the most important person in my life was gone. It has been months since Kaylub had gone missing, the others seemed to have less troubles of moving on from it except for me, I was know were near close to moving on. Half of me knows I probably never will. "We understand you're still worried about Kaylub but…" Darrell said gently, but I couldn't help but flinch at the mention of his name out loud. "You don't understand anything." Pat said now glaring at them as he looked up. Lesley put her arms up in a feeble attempt to calm him. "Let's calm down now Pat, we're just trying to help." She said biting her lip nervously. Patrick looked back down, and went back down, and went back to ignoring all of us. I sighed as I looked down at my tray of untouched food. I couldn't remember the last time I had actually ate a full meal, Kaylub's absence had taken all of my will to eat. "You ok Vanessa?" Ryan asked with a worried frown. I nodded. "Just thinking." I said honestly. Ryan nodded in understanding, and looked to the others. "Come on guys, let's get to class." He said standing up with his empty tray. The others followed, except for Patrick, and I. Ryan came over, and took my tray for me with a nice smile. Pain erupted in my heart as I let him take my tray. Kaylub had done that for me everyday, I could just image him here, flashing that warm and friendly smile. Tears stung in my eyes as fire burned through me. I had become used to this silent torture, I wanted to remember Kaylub, no matter how much pain this would put me though. Did that made any sense at all, or did I sound as nuts to everyone else as I did to myself; not like I've admitted this to anyone before ever. I quickly pulled myself together as Ryan came back. "Ready to go?" He asked, and I slowly stood up with a nod, but I paused, and glanced back to Pat. "Aren't you coming Pat?" Ryan asked noticing my look to him. Pat shook his head, not even bothering to look up at us. I understood this though, I knew a little bit about what he was going through I was going through it to. Review