Both black and white, two starkly contrasting colors. It reminded me of many things, the day and night, the light and dark. I twisted the fine pale blue silk of my skirt as I continued to stare at the dark blue night sky. I ran my eyes down the sleek stem that was swaying slightly in the breeze. My gaze ended at the shoots that peeked out from beneath the dark soil. My eyes saddened at the sight of something that cannot be an ending of mine. The taste of salt at my lips stunned me as I took a moment to wonder why. Then realization hit me. Tears. My hands released the cloth that I've held onto tightly. Shaking slightly, I reached up to touch my eyes tentatively. They were wet. I held back a sob that suddenly threatened to burst out of my chest. I clasped my hands over the piece of silver over my neck; hoping that it would give me strength. Actually, deep down in my heart, I knew the precious stone could not help me. But I chose to deceive myself. Deceive myself that it could give me strength. Deceive myself that I could get through this. It was all a lie. A fraud. Whatever you may call it, it's the same. "All the same." The words left my lips in the form of the barest of whispers. The winds caressed my cheeks and my hair as I imagined it also bringing my words away to a far away land. I couldn't begin to fathom why I've decided to start reminiscing of my life. A life of twenty-three years. Twenty three hateful years. Accursed. That is one of the many words that could describe my life. An angry frown crept on my face as I fought the urge to spit at the words, 'My life'. A shaky laugh rumbled from my throat as tears started to form. My life. It was curse ><><><><>><><><><><><><>< Hiyooo It's Riri_ lol named was changed.. Again. Well here I am with another fanfic Hope ya liked it
I remember you! I love this so far; a few grammar errors but still wonderful. I can't wait to read more.
Thank you all And lol by 'boo' did you mean bad? It's okay lol I can take criticism Btw sorry short update but I'll try to update more later today ><><><><><><><><><><><><><>< A curse the moment I arrived at my household's doors. A curse that moment I stepped into the brown wooden floor. My life should be a restricted section of history, never to be known. Not to be seen. Not to be heard. It was too ugly in the face of idealism. Too ugly for anyone to see or hear. If given a chance, I would never have wanted this life. Not even if anyone is willing to grant all my wishes. The woods were silent even as I started to think and recollect my accursed life.
Flash back The night, in my opinion, was the best time of a day. In a way, it offers me peace and sanctuary for my own thoughts and leisurely hobbies, such as reading. To be more specific, reading the "borrowed" books from my father's study. I pouted a little at the thought that welled up from the depths of my head. Honestly, I don't understand why women can't study? It's as if we're not good enough to do so. I thought furiously as I frowned at the faint glow of the candle. Well basically, men are too proud! I giggled and hushed my hyped up alter ego at the mention of such crude words and would have proceeded to my alter ego. It's not befitting of a lady. I know I know. I sulked at a corner of my mind as I smiled at the childishness of the act. The combination of the rosemary and sandalwood incense made me feel strangely relaxed as I finished off the last sentence. Rubbing my temples gently, I lifted a loose floor board and placed the books down the hole. My green eyes lingered slightly on the few books as a melancholic look replaced my earlier tired one. My long tapered fingers reached down to slide over the worn volumes lightly when i looked up suddenly. Firmly placing the floorboard back and blowing out the candle, I scampered back onto my futon frantically. If anyone caught me guilty of studying… I shivered at the thought as I lied on my back, my ears straining to hear for any sounds. Fear slithered through my veins as time went ticking by and the rustling outside continued. Did anyone see me? I asked in my head, my hands clenched the blanket tightly. Then, A low breathy moan exploded softly from outside the window. I raised an eyebrow, thoughts ran amok in my head as i glanced at the wooden door. Is the person hurt? Why is she moaning? I thought solicitously, my curiosity far outweighed my fear as I pushed away my blanket and shuffled softly to the wooden door. Light giggling and low murmurs sounded in the quiet air as I stepped outside silently. Another needy moan cut through the air as I crept along the hard wooden floorboards of the hallway. The higher pitched moans clearly signified a woman as I continued to tip-toe to the guest room, where all the sounds originated from. Is she doing some stretching? I frowned, my fine brown eyebrows meeting at my forehead as I cleverly sidestepped the floorboard that always squeaked when stepped on. I was about to tap the wooden door lightly when a passionate confession of "Ash" was made. My eyes widened in surprise as I clapped a hand over my opened mouth. I recognized that voice! It was my older sister's! The profession of love sent questions bouncing everywhere in the confines my skull as i contemplated what I should do next. I wisely decided to leave the scene, not wanting to know what was going on in the room as I back peddled a step. SQUEAK ><><><><><><><><><><><><>< Yo Hope this is a long updated
Stupid! I cursed when a sharp gasp was heard coming from the room. Once again, dread filled my being. I clenched my fist; my fingernails digging into the soft flesh of my palms as I bit my lip. Frenzied shuffling sounded in the room when a hard voice commanded, "Get in here. Whoever you are." The acid that laced with the demand did not go unnoticed by myself as I gulped nervously. Sliding the wooden door open, I walked towards the cold and calculating pretty face of my sister. The older woman's blue eyes glittered dangerously as a sinister smirk played around her lips, " What are you doing here?" My green eyes took in my sister's dangerous but slightly disoriented form as I twisted the soft fabric of my sleeping gown in my hands. My mind failing to formulate an excuse when my sister stood and walked to me slowly. I willed myself not to flinch when the woman stood at an inch away from me. The smell of sweat and something I could not identify surrounded my sister, Andrea. I frowned inwardly as I looked at my sister's ruffled gown and swollen lips. Glancing at the back, I saw something that made me gasp lightly. A familiar grey shirt was sprawled on the floor! Everything clicked in my head as I took a deep intake of breath. My voice was trembling slightly as I spoke softly, "An affair." My sister froze, her blue eyes narrowing at me, as if daring me to continue. I did not heed the warning that accompanied the look my sister shot myself as I continued in a whisper, "But Andrea it is forbidden between a servant and a lady." A slap sounded in the air as my head snapped viciously to the right. Tears threatened to fall as I cradled my stinging and reddening right cheek. Andrea's hard blue pools glared into my watery green ones as she spat, "Silence. You shall not tell this to anyone. Or I'll make your life very pitiful." What the hell! Now you're threatening me? I yelled in my head, shaking my fists. My green eyes lit up in jade fury as i glowered back at my sister, "I don't see why you could do that considering your position as a… participant in the affair." A chilling laugh sounded in the room. I watched the laughing form of my sister with narrow jade eyes. My sister's blue eyes bored into mine as a cool hand caught my chin, preventing me from turning away. A sense of dread filled me being as I continued to stare into those blue pools, I struggled against my sister's grip, pulling away forcefully. "Poor Sally. Sweet poor Sally. Don't you wonder why no one in the family ever talks to you? Why everybody seems to ignore your existence?" That sentence froze me in my place and sent another flurry of questions ran through my head as I stood. My sister chuckled mirthfully and sashayed over to me and whispered by her ear. "Because you are a whore's daughter."