Stephanie says my eyes look lifless ever since Jace arrived. He always wanted to talk I met two new people James and Justin they are really cool. It's weird I have more dude friends than girls I guess I should make more friends. Stephanie asked why we don't go outside alot. Elle says I need to face him but it's just horrible. All the boys are nice to me and think Stefphanie is a cute little girl. I wonder if I could ask god to choose to live. My moms prayers keep coming in so fast my head spins I need to figure something out. He's back at my window again asking if we can talk. I refuse then his face goes away. The window is shattered som.....