------ Chapter 2, Suffering ------ My head was resting at the crook of his neck as I was breathing; whispering in between my ragged breaths that I loved him. He was transparent, too far for me to reach out and grab, and I resented myself for it. I let him go. I let everything go. I could barely embrace him, only the feel of him kept me satisfied. His figure was made out of mist, but I could still touch him... Just a little. I could feel tears fall until I heard the whisper of my name... My name, the name I'm using now. "Jasmine?" My black hair faded and my green eyes switched to blue. I was no longer hugging Jay, but was now looking up at the monster I was supposed to marry. 'Talk about a nightmarish dream...' ----- I woke up, my eyes wide and my cheek moist. I raised a hand up and touched it, the sudden feeling of fear and shock travelled down my spine like a snake, and I sunk back to sleep, hugging my pillow as I imagined Jay was right beside me, right beside me in this very bed, rocking me to sleep. ----- To my dismay, Violet kept up with her flirting, and I had recieved many glares from teachers and disappointing looks from my classmates. Instead of turning her down, I let her keep up. Her fail flirting resembles Ciel annoying the crap outta me, and I can't help but hate myself comparing them together. Violet was no way near my Ciel, her light blonde hair and shocking grey eyes are the exact opposite of Ciel's appearance. Violet used to tie her hair up in a modest way, but now she lets in down, right above her breasts, making her look extremely slutty, her tight top threatening to expose her chest. I wanted to leave, escape reality, but in order to do that I'll either die or become insane. But no, I had to believe Ciel was alive and wait. ----- Short. Update. Nobody. Cares. About.
------ Here I am, sitting in a plane that's sending me to New York. Or was it Los Angelos? I don't really care anymore. All I know is that I'm going back to my old school, right in time for graduation year. Boy am I in a crappy situation. I might see Jay. I might not. I might see Ace. I might not. I might see Violet. I hope not. ... I've recieved texts from old friends on Facebook, ones that graduated and didn't give a damn about adding strangers, that were bitching about Violet, and rumors that my ex was beginning a war with Jay, who was supposed to leave for Hawaii. Oh well. I'll see in twenty minutes. But for now, I'm staying in character and ordering myself a super chilled coke. No salt. ----- -headdesk- Violet walked in in a slutty maid outfit. Her excuse was that she started a night job at the diner at town, and that they're paying her a hell load just to wear that costume. Gaaaaaaatcha. Fail. Violet had the nerve to slip her little drink on my desk and wink at me as if I was a stranger who was a vistim in her "seductive" spider web. So not happening. ----- "Charlotte Rein?" Did I hear Charl's name? Did I hear her call? I couldn't quite catch myself. I was hypervenilating from excitement and memories... "Jasmine Sakine?" ... No "Ciel?" Yes. Sakine was my foster family's name. And I never had a last name. I just loved with Jay and his family until I turned 14. His mom decided I was old enough and kicked me outta the house with a load of cash and i bought an apartment to myself and lived life. I was a stranger again. A nobody. "Jasmine Sakurine?" I snapped my head and blushed. Everybody snickered. ... Except him. I stared, and gasped. It was Jay. ----- Class dismissed and I walked to my locker. God bless. I was seperated from Violet by a girl named... Jasmine. I saw her at class. Her face was similar to Ciel but she changed. She changed. She was fake, unlike Ciel. Her contacts. She looked like she had brown eyes, and her hair was naturally blonde. ... Right? ---- "Hello." I was greeted by a charming voice, actually, two. Both sang out hello simutaneously, and I smiled at their direction. ... I remember them! Carlos and Dimitri, the Haven twins. Both were charming in their own way, and they looked so similar! Except Carlos had brown hair and Dimitri had blonde. Both were smiling at me, their eyes twinkling. I couldn't help but smile even more. These twins were so cute, I remembered when they offered to help at one of my bake sales, a fundraiser for the orphanage. "Oh! The Haven twins! The ones that helped me in the baker-" I shut up with a gasp. They stared at me, and each other, before hugging me. "Ciel...!" They whispered it in my ears, before letting go. "I thought you died!" "No. Close, though. I had to undergo... Surgery." I remembered they ounched me so badly, then shot me in the shoulder. I still had bruises on my stomach, but that's private. "Promise you'll keep this secret." They nodded. Dimitri's eyes had a sparkle, though. I remembered he had something for me, but I didn't realize it until the last moment. It was like a lightbulb, when I was dragged to Japan. The memories flooded and I just kept smiling at them, even when my tears fell silently. I embraced them, not caring if my tears soaked my red and white blousey-dress. ----- "That slut. She hooked up with the Haven twins!" Rumors were spreading about Jasminelike a wildfire. I glared at Violet and Rebecca, throwing it at them like daggers. They shut their mouth as Carlos confronted us. "Jasmine is not a slut, Violet." Violet just stared at him. I can read her thoughts clearly. 'HOW DARE YOU TALK TO ME-' She said that as well. Carlos sneered and walked back to his table, smiling at Dimitri, Charlotte, Carmen and Jasmine. They were a cosy group, and I got sick of Rebecca and Violet. I picked up my tray and joined them. Jasmine was still smiling, her chattering and voice was pleasent, not squeaky like Rebecca. "I'm thinking of making a fundraiser for the orphanage... St. Ea-" Everybody except the Havens stared. Including me. Only Ciel had the mind and heart of doing that. "Oh... Dimitri informed me... I visited the orphanage at class break and..." "Ciel." She averted her eyes, then Carmen spoke. "Jay, I'm sorry. But Ciel's dead-" "CIEL'S NOT DEAD DAMNIT! I REFUSE TO BELIEVE IT." Everybody stared at me, including Jasmine, but her lips twitched at the side and her eyes were glossy. ---- He still remembers. He still loves me. Jay still loves me. "J-J-Jay?" "What?!" "... Thank you." I said it in a whisper nobody heard, and shut my eyes. Then I picked up my tray and left. I was too happy, so I left the cafeteria and sat outside. "Jasmine I take?" I stared up in a pair of cold eyes. Typical. -----