If I used my own blood as ink, I still couldn't write my pain. So much sorrow on my brain, No wonder why I feel strain. I embark on this lonely path, Bravely embracing my anger. Lately I've felt like a stranger, Willingly looking for danger. I live on the edge... cliff hanger, But I let go to fall to my doom. I'm the brightest in the room, Yet filled with the most gloom. All of my rage is etched deep, Interrupting my time to sleep. My favorite memories fade, Because of the mess I made. Good times I can't remember, Slowly fading away like a cinder. They combust when I recall, All the emotions I expressed. I'm a book in a lost language, Read me... I won't be undressed. Masked within a veil of mystery, Forgetting myself is brief history... It's like the first drops of water, That enter my system when I cry. Gradually it's relieving sometimes, When tears flow from each eye. I questioned "who the hell am I," When I am myself... no one else.
Aww, this thread is deep. ? Im happier now so I don’t write much anymore, but there’s this: rest in peace..rest in peace..rest in peace while i lay these demons to sleep. come for me now, i won’t cry, i won’t weep. i’ll rip ur heart out and show u the meat. u can’t define me now for i am strong, not weak. so, rest in peace..rest in peace..rest in peace.. while i lay these demons to sleep. It’s not the best??♀️ but it’s just a lesson that it’s only temporary... though it may feel like forever, with effort and time things fade, believe me. Everything’s only as tough/sad as u make it seem.. but if u tell yourself that u want different and actually do different then things will shift into ur favor. One day, you’ll wake up and just decide that ur tired of just being sad or feeling whatever way ur feeling and you’ll actually start switchin’ it up. ? Everything comes with a lesson. Luv to all u sad souls, be happy.?
Don't Cry Mama don't you cry, I won't die on the pavement. I can't imagine why, A witness gave a statement. I got lost in the sky, Believing I'd be something. Trying to break me, Saying I wouldn't be nothing. Wipe all your tears, I won't lie cause I'm guilty. I'll face all my fears, When my heart feels filthy. My personality evil, I know you raised me better. My will was feeble, It changed like the weather. I didn't care much, Enraptured in bad pleasure. My items are lush, My heart's light as a feather. I'll fight for my life, Dying in these cold shackles. I must atone now, No trial facing these battles. Don't ask me how, Or why I ended up this way. Breaking my spirit, My heart bleeds real slow. Holler if you hear it, I'm letting all my morals go. Mama don't you cry, I'm holding on to what's left. I can't imagine why, I wasn't sentenced to death. I can't view the sky, You stole my freedom for theft. Mama don't cry, I'm sorry... Mama don't cry, I'm sorry... My heart feels so dirty, Dear Lord, have mercy... Please forgive me, I'm sorry...
I want an art slùt blunt cut. I want a bad boy chew toy. I wanna’ play rough; be tough. I wanna’ bite skin; get in. I want to be your evil twin. I wanna’ be your friend, dead end. I wanna’ know you well, go to hell. I wanna’ taste your tongue, be the one. I want to say goodbye, but never die. I want to know every reason why. I want all the glory of the gory B movie beauty queens. I want to idolize the very knife that kills them on my movie screen. I know what's good for me but I don't want it. Momma said I’m fùcked up, daddy says I’m haunted by the very words my momma said still spinning in my head. I want to drown them out by liquor’s liquid lips. I want to drown myself with the littlest of sips. I want to want because it hurts too much to need I want anyone that wants to watch me bleed. I want a mistake; cheap fake. I want a cold man with strong hands. I want a pothead instead. I want glazed eyes; a disguise. I want him just like all the other guys. I want to wake up in handcuffs. I want break down, underground. I want to talk terms; feed worms. I want to rest in peace; find release. I want to film my own decease. I want all the pleasure I can measure swimming in ecstasy. I want to stay alive while I die and watch it on my movie screen. I know what's good for me but I don't want it. Momma said I’m fùcked up, daddy says I’m haunted by the very words my momma said still spinning in my head. I want to numb the pain by any way I can. I want to go back to where this all began. I want to want because it hurts too much to need I want anyone that wants to watch me bleed.
Wet I tried to disregard females, And acquire some currency. I won't go into any details, Cause of how I feel currently. Current situations drown me, Like strong currents I can't see. I was colder than the Arctic Sea, As love personified as my enemy. Liquor became a false remedy, And it was dark times for me. I don't know why things occur, The rage makes my vision blur. I hate when my words slur, How can I carry on like this? I just wanna fuck her senseless, But her questions are relentless. I'd rather choke downing this bottle, Pride is the hardest sh it to swallow. When she smiles she's a model, When she walks my eyes follow. Give me love or a wet dream, I can hear my desires scream. I still see her smile all the time, Especially when I close my eyes. She used to question my motives, When I had no motivation in mind. I can't resist her stupid ass laugh, Even when she left me behind. My heart aches for her touch, I'm suffocating in my wet dream. I'm drowning in my sorrow, Fearful of the pain I'll feel tomorrow.
You without any makeup, Is my favorite scenery. You grind my gears often, Like factory machinery. I go balls deep in the net, That's mamba mentality. You're slippery when wet, With a beautiful personality. I can conclude you're cute, On the inside and outside. I think I have a shot to shoot, I can't let my feelings hide. I give you the key to my chest, Where my dark heart rests. You can have my whole heart, I've never accessed it anyway. Your voice is a sweet symphony, My thoughts are conscientious. I'm exhilarated by your energy, I hope our efforts are propitious. You're a love extraordinaire, But be careful how you fare. There's nostalgic memories, That we both want to share. Your petty past isn't pertinent, That's my honest sentiment. When I devote myself to us, I swear it'll never be evanescent. Insecurities are diminutive, When our mood gets pensive. Deep thoughts and wet dreams, Makes you the woman of my dreams.
"Forbidden Love" Countless years have passed Still not seeing you Don't know where to start Just keep on reminiscing the time when i first saw you. This whole summer You let me feel how to be loved You let me experience this feeling that i didn't feel for a long time The feeling that quite new to me, that there's actually someone will love me like you do. You gave me this confusing feeling And i felt quite loss to your words Don't know if i should believe you Seven years have passed and you tell me you love me. You never failed to make me special Even if i keep on pushing you away Sometimes i'm hurting you through the words what my mouth spill Keep on saying sorry to my wrong actions towards you. But now i don't know if i can stop what i'm feeling for you Because i'm starting to fall for you But we can't be what you wanted us to be Because we are forbidden for each other. -June 17, 2013; 6;30pm-
Shyness i have a crush on someone i cant tell... i feel ashamed, i need someones help, i cant take it anymore... every time i see her i turn to a stone, a solid rock without a soul... im going crazy without control... someone press the stop button so i could think about it more... should i tell her? or should i ignore? i feel like if i want to cry because is the first time it happens to me... im not even telling a lie but the thing i could tell is that without her ill probably die... i ask myself could it be? or maybe is something thats going to end up dramatically?!... then thinking about it again its going to turn both back into friends... thats what im afraid and whats holding me back but i got to think positive and go with my track... shes like a rose, with cute brown light eyes that every time she pass by i feel like a cloud going way up high... my love for her reach above the sky i really want her to know... in matter of fact ill just let it go but no im really going to tell her a day that we're alone and if she says "no" i just let it go... i cant control her to say "yes" i got to understand that she doesn't feel the same way towards me... just as i thought it would i see and feel her because of who she is... i put my eyes into her soul not in her physical and if she was ugly i would still feel the same way, nothing would change...
Give you my heart, Full of pain... Give me difference. I can't refrain, From loving, Whatever I gain. Switching lanes, I can't explain, Feeling disdain. I persecute, Myself cause, You were cute. My heart can't, Rebute, And I won't refute. I could be a mute, And still shoot, You a reply. You seem shy, And ask why, Am I a sad guy. I reply, Tears in my eye, Explaining why. I accept what, I can get, Cause I'm sad. I don't want, To hit, That'd be bad. You're rad, Just love me, For me and I'd be glad.
Life is expensive, We still die for free. Life is extensive, No parole, no key. The best things, Bring us pain. The worst things, Have more gain. We're all living life, Dying on the inside. We flash ourselves, Now nothing hides. Possibilities are infinite, But we die before the limit. Want to live life to the fullest, But we're too busy dying. Our opinions often differ, As our egos get bigger. Are we really shocked, We keep our minds locked? Why are we all close minded, Never faltering to change? Let's trade war stories, It could be a unique exchange. We all populate the Earth, And came here via birth. Let's make a stand together, We're hand in hand together...
"Motivacations" ~Todd Don't you fret About your debt Or regret We'd ever met Think of a time You could enjoy When you were a lil Girl or boy Things'll get better Yeah Things'll change There's things in your life That you'll rearrange The fallouts from your life Aren't in waste Accept it, learn it, live it And do it with haste When shipt hits the fan Just smile and wink Give yourself time To stop and think Just put it all together And get it in sync Calm it, cool it, chill it Just don't hit the brink
It’s Called Art: A Poem What is up with the subject of love? How much more pretentious can you get? But that’s poetry for you, as the critics go wet It’s not like you actually experienced it To feel that certain love you wrote Was it all just for the clout? To join the attention boat? I definitely do not want to know How you feel, how you sulk, how you depress But that’s just me, probably me... only me, I guess Now that we’ve reached the end Which also concludes my rhyme This poem will be the summit of my age and time